I cant believe i haven't blogged since May?
I started going out with Matt aka porn star June 9th. I didn't think it would last but here i am still with him almost 5 months later. Life works in funny ways. He's actually an amazing boyfriend or shall i say girlfriend, because he's basically the girl in this relationship and maybe thats what i needed.
Now onto my story...
Pretty sure the reason i started this blog was so once i was almost able to tell my story, id be able to share it and maybe, just maybe somebody would be able to relate to me.
You should probably know I'm an immigrant, i arrived here when i was 12.
NOBODY comes to the U.S and magically becomes legal, but there are ways to do so later on.
So i came here as a tourist and we decided to stay. I have been legal since i got here but being legal isn't enough, you see the thing with immigration policies is they seem simple but they are far more complex than the naked eye can see. Long story short this psycho path tried to kill my mom and it turned out there was a Visa that covered victims of abuse for collaborating with justice and being brave enough to speak up. It's called a U visa, so if you're an immigrant and a victim of abuse don't let people threaten you or be afraid of speaking up, if things are legit they will work out to your advantage.
In 2006 my mom sent the paperwork to immigration...2009 came along and immigration "hadn't received" our paperwork. Hard lesson learned always send important stuff through certified mail.
A U visa requires you to be under it for 3 years before you can apply for a Greencard. After 3 years based on your behavior they decide whether your worthy enough or not (nobody wants to grant such privilege to a parasite) So since they lost our paperwork we had to start over again which meant 3 more years of waiting. During this 3 years you're provided a work permit and a social security card number which allows you to work, get a drivers license etc.
It wasn't until a month before i graduated in 2010 that i found out that i would not be able to attend college because the missing piece of my puzzle, in order to qualify for in state tuition you need a Green card, which i could get for 2 more years.
About 8 college acceptance letters my dreams were crushed, put on hold for 2 years after i graduated.
Words cannot describe how painful it is to work your ass off in high school for 4 years and not be able to collect its perks. I was not going to be able to go to college just yet, while all my friends went on and set out to reach their dreams. I was bitter, i was mad upset because i had accomplished so much for "nothing" as i used to say. I was so bothered by the lack of motivation the other kids displayed when they had so many possibilities! You can go to college, you can travel why aren't you doing something with your life other than getting pregnant, going to parties or doing drugs. I thought all of that was ridiculous! I really hated it/ hate it when people ask me if i go to school, when you say "no" you get the craziest look from people like what are you doing with your life if you aren't going to school? I was working my ass off to buy my car. Since i wanted to join the military, i told people i wasn't going to school because i was enlisting as soon as i felt ready to take the ASVAB again. That was a white lie because i am enlisting but the reason i haven't enlisted isn't because I'm waiting to feel ready, though i was not satisfied with my first ASVAB score but that is expired by now since i took it my junior year.
Anyway that story gets kinda old after almost 3 years, i know a lot of people don't take that answer seriously but sooner or later ill be able to show them.
I actually thought sooner would be this past monday when my mom went to pick up "our" green cards from the lawyers office, i was so excited the time was finally here! I imagined countless scenarios with an air force recruiter. I was going to walk in an let them know i was finally ready to cross into the blue, like the invitation i was sent after i took my ASVAB my junior year,which i still keep in my memory folder.
So that monday morning my mom had everyones green card except for mine...why me? me who's been waiting for 2 years to make something happen, me who had all the desire in the world to go see a recruiter that afternoon, me who finally wants to make a something happen!
Turns out they couldn't process my paperwork because they were missing the last 2 copies of my passport pages and that they wouldn't do anything until those were received. ARE YOU KIDDING ME? out of everyones paperwork why is mine missing pages when everything was sent through certified mail?
That same day my mom copied my whole passport in color and sent it in. Wednesday i got a text alert from immigration saying they had received my paperwork and that it could take up to 60 days for a review. Here we go again the waiting game, my mom thinks it shouldn't take that long but last time when i got that alert it did take almost 2 months... sigh.
Don't get me wrong i am so grateful for having this opportunity even if its taking forever.
I know there are kids out there who are waiting for nothing, because they don't have a something to wait for or a work permit to allow them to kill time, while they wait for that nothing that has no estimate as to when it will come; there are others who have everything, yet they don't take advantage of any it.
So I'm just here waiting for my something.
