It kinda sucks nothing interesting has happened to me lately, other than meeting Travie from gym class heroes at work obviously. Dude smelled like smoke but he was really nice, nice enough to take a picture with me and another kid at least.
Completed the NASCAR event without a glitch; Tried on some army gear and damn i have respect for all the guys who wear this on a daily basis shits heavy as fuck. Wrote a letter to a deployed soldier, its incredible how the little things can make a difference in peoples lifes.Worked at a glamour party doing little girls make up and nails; talk about a dream come true. I always wanted my real life dolls and i love being looked up to how can you not love me in this dress.Im like a little girl, in a little girls body with a big girls age (19) yeah i’m getting pretty damn old! Feather hair extensions, sparkly pink dresses, long princess hair, sparkly make up and cheetah sparkly nails (yup i love sparkles, if you couldn’t already tell.) I clearly don’t want to grow up, i do work like a slave sorta so that makes me kinda grown up right?
I saw a dude from my online dating profile (http://www.okcupid.com/profile)in person without meaning to. He was at the gaming department as i was trading in my brothers xbox. Poor guy was so puzzled or at least he looked puzzled. Kept tilting his head and staring hard, with the "i know you but i’m not quite sure look” if he knew who i was he was probably thinking this bitch never messaged me back. Now he was the stereotype of someone with an online dating profile, awkward as hell! like i’m awkwardish but this boy took it to a whole new level.
Oh and how could i forget to talk about my black friday nightmare. Finding a parking spot at work was nearly impossible, there was a huge line of people waiting to get in and all around the store was crowded. $199.99 Tv is kind of a big deal!
I didn’t sleep for more than 24 hours, i went into work at 1 am and was supposed to leave at 1 pm the next day. My feet were killing me by 10 am i was about to start crying from how much pain i was in.
Tried to play MW3 that game is really hard how do boys and gamer girls do it? Some asshole said i should go back to the kitchen... whats up with guys and the kitchen really? This other guy stood up for me and everyone assumed he was my boyfriend, i just listened because guys are kinda funny when they argue; “dude i’m gonna kick your ass... i’m bigger than you...no your not pussy... look me up on facebook..i wish you would come here”
Now i’m truly starting to believe certain people come into your life to help you get over certain things and so you can feed off the confidence they boost you with...
...Mr enchanted who? onto the next one onto the next one (i always wanted to say that) His friend did text me again and i did tell him what happened between me and him... He said they were bestfriends (which i didn’t know and what kind of bestfriend does that shit) Ah feels good to have no secrets.
The gutsy guy whom i lost my virginity to came into town. He didn’t come see his peoples at work, not that i was expecting him to but he did ask when i worked so...
At one point he asked me if i could give him a ride to the airport, i worked so no ride...
I think 2 days before he was going to leave he texted me saying “Goldie come kick it at the beach” oh sure let me just get in the car, drive there so you can try another last minute move on me and then leave me like im a hooker or whatever. Needless to say i didn’t text him back and i felt like i finally had the power. So fuck you biatchh, karma is a beautiful bitch.
What else is new since i last posted? I went to NASCAR friday and i’m going tomorrow as well to work doing air brush tattoo’s. As i stepped into the place all i could think of was final destination 4 i think it was but it looked really cool, the Airforce base down here is by there (because its the middle of nowhere) and the planes were so LOUD! at one point i got scared haha
They had an army station and this douche bag tried to convince me the army was better than the airforce... No dude don’t try to recruit me into the army i’ve been there done that if it comes down to it ill go army but AF is still what i want.
Either i am over reacting or i’m pretty much romance cursed.
I look forward to today(saturday) ALL FUCKING WEEK! because i was supposed to go out with "Mr. Enchanted", i confirmed with him the night before and set a time to pick him up (3 pm). Woke up at 9, cleaned the shit out of my car like spotless clean; came into the house to find out he texted me saying he “got called into work” i put a sad face and he didn’t text back. So at around 4 i texted him asking him if he was off yet... "Oh i get off at 6 p.m tomorrow” (split that into 3 to 4 texts because all he textes me are one word answers) Reschedule? his answer was “possibly” what do you mean? “idk possibly” ok...
Waited until my Bestfriend came over and read the texting history between us and deleted it, along with his number (because thats what angry me does).
I also feel really guilty about the other guy, his friend whom i was supposed to meet in the first place. The tough front is obviously not working out...
I texted his friend, despite blowing off meeting me or getting cold feet whatever it was. He actually textes me or did until i asked him to call me so i could talk to him about something important ( i was about to confess hooking up with his friend) but he didn’t reply or call so that goes to shit.
I also was texting the wrong guy yesterday who happened to have the same name as "Mr enchanted" on my phone (i didn’t pay attention to the last name) made a date with him kinda, because i thought he was somebody else and fucked shit up with him, he asked me to delete his number off my phone.
So thats me FUCKING SHIT UP left and right!
So who’s next?
Ill just go cry myself to sleep no biggie, thats all i wanna do right now... I haven’t cried since i lost my virginity so i’m due for a good cry.
Im jamming to my “rock” while i write this when i should be all Taylor swifty because of last night.
Bahaha life has a funny way of working. It’s like you never know whats going to happen or why things happen until they start making sense.
On the 16th i blogged about this dude who blew our “meeting” off and hurt my feelings doing so (because who the fuck wants to waste a weekend waiting around for someone, only i would actually waste it) I didn’t mention it was supposed to be him and his friend and me and my bff kinda like a double date thing but it wasn’t a date (not that i know)
On sunday night i went over my bffs and she asked about my profile and why i had disabled it. So i told her because of the last guy and she’s like "lets go on i’m bored" So i enabled it and well i kinda wanted to find the asshole and message him. I was like oh way to blow me off and never text me again, something along those lines; Then his friend who was supposed to go with him that night messaged me saying "oh your the girl he was talking about...” so i figured shit he must have been logged onto the other dudes account and seen my message/ complain about blowing me off. I didn’t say anything though and kept messaging back. My bff asked him to go trick or treating with us and he was like woah moving too fast or something like that, so i asked her to drop it.
We skyped that night and then HE brought meeting up on halloween after previously freaking out about me (my friend texting from my phone) asking; mhmm what magic did my hair in a bun, sweat pant, tired looking face do.
The next day we agreed on taking our friends this time but go out again on saturday by ourselves.
I honestly thought he would flake (ghetto for fall through) but he didn’t and i am oh so glad he didn’t.
So we met at Bestbuy came up to him and said hey! then we left bestbuy and walked FOREVER! I thought it was pretty funny that i’ve lived in south florida for 7 years and i haven’t been to southbeach. Yet here i was getting a tour from a guy who moved down here months ago...
The streets were crowded and filled with girls dressed ehhh not so lady like. I thought it was sweet of him to say something like whatever they are always dressed with their boobs hanging out so nothing new (as in don’t worry i’m not going to breakneck checking them out, at least not when i’m with you lol)
I wasn’t really sure if he was interested in me, until we talked about clothing and he mentioned he liked polo i said “thats sophisticated looking” and he said oh i didnt wanna go all out on the first day ;) (oh lala so he digs my looks or something, because he wouldn’t mention a first if there wasn’t going to be a second right?) I probably said oh i went all out and then just kidded him.
Our arms kept brushing against each others and i just wanted him to grab my hand already dammit! So i said i’m just gonna hold onto your arm because i don’t wanna get lost (Thank you crowded streets for giving me a valid excuse!) i held his arm for like 2 seconds, then he just grabbed my hand and we held hands the rest of the night.
As we were walking along the beach there was a huge puddle and guess who got a piggy back ride through the puddle? This princess! Can i just say this is the sweetest, most gentlemanish thing a guy has ever done for me. He stopped in front of the puddle and i’m like why did u stop? hop on! what? o_o hop on my back! omg really? thats kinda how it went down.
we got to the Jetties and went out on the rocks away from our friends. The view was beautiful, he had his arm around me, my head on his shoulder and then because its me we are talking about here, we got splashed with water from this one big wave. I wiped the salty water from his face and he wiped it from my arms. Then i don’t know how or when, ahh its like i can never remember. We kissed and his lips tasted salty from the water, i just laughed and kiss, kiss, kiss. It was 1030 and my friend had to be home at 11, so we started walking back and it was all over. I went on my first date off a website :o its funny because when we were kissing i though to myself “omg am i really kissing someone i met online? and most importantly i met someone who’s attractive online and in person?!?”
I texted him when i got home and he didn’t reply....
I though ah shit no i didn’t just get used or something along those lines (not that we did anything except for kissing).. He went to sleep when he got home and replied when he woke up, sigh what a relief.
The guy who took my virginty is back in the US, he’s got an interview at my city’s police department; cool.
The ex boyfriend who dumped me years ago around xmas after 5 days of “relationship” commented my picture and is now trying to play the oh what an idiot i was card, i was immature back then man i messed up... lets hang out for old times sake...Oh sure because it was so easy to forget the nights i spent crying about being dumped!
Listening to the song he dedicated to me and thinking about how stupid i was for believing in him, it took me years to be able to listen to the song and feel nothing. though it will always remind me of him because he introduced me to it.
Whatever i’m still floating on my halloween experience cloud, just thinking of him brings back butterflies in my stomach.
This is me praying that This was the very first page Not where the story line ends My thoughts will echo your name Until I see you again These are the words I held back
As I was leaving too soonI was enchanted to meet you ♥
Completed the NASCAR event without a glitch; Tried on some army gear and damn i have respect for all the guys who wear this on a daily basis shits heavy as fuck. Wrote a letter to a deployed soldier, its incredible how the little things can make a difference in peoples lifes.Worked at a glamour party doing little girls make up and nails; talk about a dream come true. I always wanted my real life dolls and i love being looked up to how can you not love me in this dress.Im like a little girl, in a little girls body with a big girls age (19) yeah i’m getting pretty damn old! Feather hair extensions, sparkly pink dresses, long princess hair, sparkly make up and cheetah sparkly nails (yup i love sparkles, if you couldn’t already tell.) I clearly don’t want to grow up, i do work like a slave sorta so that makes me kinda grown up right?
