MEPS

This is my MEPS experience:

As i had mentioned previously i went to MEPS for my asvab almost 2 weeks ago and i went again yesterday.

On Sunday i showed up to the marriot hotel; 1 because it was free and 2 because i didn't want to wake up at 3 am and make the 40 mins drive to MEPS.

At the hotel i was hoping to make some friends, but i was too shy to approach the table full of guys;

I figured id get a roommate and make friends with her.

At 7 pm no sign of roommate i went downstairs and ordered my food. 

I ordered chicken fingers with fries and a pepsi. 

A couple of minutes before the food was brought out, i saw 2 guys looking like they were lost. So i was like are you guys trying to order your food? and they weren't (they were actually looking for the big group of guys) so i was like i don't wanna eat alone and they joined me and i made friends with them.

One was a guy shipping out for the marines and the other guy was getting his physical done for the coast guard. I spent the remaining hours of our 10 pm curfew with them just talking and hanging out by the pool.

Our wake up call was at 4:30 am, i did my routine and i made it down stairs at like 5:10 and everyone was already down stairs. The coast guard guy loudly joked she's air force guys, everyone laughed.

It was pretty funny, we ate and made it to meps by like 5:50 (doors opened at 6)

They put us through the metal detector and we lined up to check in using that finger printing system; luckily i already knew the trick was and i was able to check in fast. We sat down and waited for a while until everyone got checked in. 

I was suffering for those poor people who were there for the first time and the finger print gave them just as much or more trouble than me.

They took us to the 2nd floor where all the medical stuff would be done and I'm just going to list the things that happened.

- We sat in a room with desks with our names in medical record papers.

-They called us one by one to be imputed into the computer.

A page from my paperwork was missing so i was sent down stairs, problem was i got lost and i couldn't open any door -_- until i found one and it led outside. 

So i took advantage of the opportunity and grabbed my jacket,phone and water bottle. I tried to come back in and i got yelled at apparently you're not supposed to leave the building for any reason. i really didn't mean to leave though.

-They signed my paper and sent me back up where they took my blood pressure.

-A doctor asked me a bunch of medical questions.

-I took the eye test and depth perception, apparently i have great vision at 17/15 and all this time  i thought 20/20 was the best. (i passed the depth perception btw) Its a weird test with like 4 rows of circles and you have to tell them which one stands out to you, in each row. My word of advice to anyone is to relax and if you feel overwhelmed close your eyes and look again. Oh i also made friends with the people at meps, the medical people at least they're the ones who can help you in case you're off by a little bit, lucky for me i was fine but being friendly with the guy who did my vision test put me at ease.

-I really had to pee so i told the lady and she let me do the pee test. Not as bad as i imagined it. Just a clean stall and you have to pee with the door open while a lady stands there. As bad as i had to pee i was freaking out and couldn't, i sat there for what seemed like the longest 5 mins. It was so frustrating because my bladder felt full but it wouldn't come out and the lady watching me (who was a the only rude person i encountered at meps this time) didn't make it any easier, i tried to make conversation so i could relax but she wouldn't respond. Finally she started talking to this guy and my pee came out hallelujah! i fucked up the labels they gave me because he said things too fast and i didn't wanna bother him with repetition.

-Went to get my blood taken out, the stupid veins wouldn't show. They stabbed both arms because the first one wasn't letting enough blood out. On a good note i didn't feel sick at all, because i didn't see my blood at all. 

-Hearing test was in a booth, you wear headphones and listen for the sound and click when you hear something. I personally closed my eyes to help me concentrate better.

-The physical test was in this cold ass room, we changed into hospital gowns and did some arm movements, touched our toes and he checked our spine. No duck walk for us and by us i mean 4 of us girls. Then you go one by one to this room and they check your boobs and quickly glance to make sure you're a girl that was so quick i didn't even have time to think about it. They also weighed us (i ended up being 116 pounds, 1 less than what the recruiter wanted me to be)  and took our height.

- You go up to the desk they send you to the doctor one more time for paperwork and you're back down stairs to the control desk, where they send you to your branches liaison.

-The sgt i got asked me to verify some paperwork and then gave me a list of jobs to chose from and told me to number them 1-9.

-I went to this other office where they input who i would leave my money to if something was to happen to me and such.

-You go back to your liaisons office and sign some paperwork then i went to this room where i watched a video on what happens if you do stupid things in the military and its consequences.

-Waited about an hour and got sworn in. Made friends with a guy who's parents were watching him get sworn in and got pictures taken :p

-Signed more papers, went back to the air force and i was officially in the DEP, Delayed entry program.

I gotta wait until a job i put down becomes available to get a ship date.

I went to my recruiters office today, got briefed on the DEP program and was made aware of how fortunate i was to be let back in after i went outside of the building for meps with my medical records thats a BIG NO NO! and they send people home immediately when they do that, no questions asked. I got really lucky. oh and i weighed in at 114 again today whoops LOL

Tears of happiness

I was scheduled to take my asvab today at 2.
My recruiter told me to come to his office at 9 am to sign some paperwork, because he was confident i would do well and he wanted me to go back to MEPS this friday.
I was so exhausted because i got home from work at 1 am and today was supposed to be my day off to sleep in! That didn't happen, i was up before 8 from the anticipation.
Im supposed to gain weight so i ate potatoes, ham and drank a shitload of water before i went to my recruiters office.
I weighed in at 116.8, 3 hours at the office and 2 trips to the bathroom and i was down to 115.8.
I went home went to the bathroom and i was on my way to MEPS about 2 hours before i was supposed to be there.

At 2 pm people started lining up to sign in and put the paper you get from your recruiter to request examination down on this black basket looking thing.
The finger print thing was a nightmare for me, it just wouldn't work for me and the guy at the desk was very mean about it. Call me stupid but this stupid arrow kept pointing to the upper left side, which i thought meant move my finger up and to the left, it also kept saying straighten your finger. I'm looking at the thing like wtf my finger can't get straighter than this! maybe my finger is nature crocked oh god!
The rude guy comes from behind the desk with all his frustration and turns my finger like the picture bellow. How does that make any sense? couldn't they have said put your finger diagonal?






How my finger was supposed to be ------>

Anyway after i left MEPS i pulled into another parking lot and called my recruiter to tell him my scores. I started freaking out because i saw a bunch of 50's and 60's so I'm like holy shit i failed.
He answered and i was like what am i looking for AFQT 80 i had passed and done better than 80% of the 20 year olds who took this. I shit you not i couldn't talk i was bawling, words cannot describe how happy i was. This is like a dream coming true, i studied so hard for this and i did it.

All i have to do is pass the physical on friday, which should be fine because i've never had any medical complications at all. thank god.

update

Not even a month later and I'm okay.
Time heals things and in the end it was the right thing to do, I'm happier now.

My precious green card finally arrived after 3 years of an emotions roller coaster wait.

Literally the day it arrived i emailed my local air force recruiter to set up an appointment and he set up an appointment for the following week.
I went to my appointment and since I'm not a citizen i don't qualify for more than 50 jobs and i think I'm exaggerating, there its probably less.
I don't care though. This is all i've ever wanted to do and the medical jobs don't require me to be a citizen so it works out for me, though it would be cool to do something with law enforcement but we'll see in the future.
Anyway i took the stupid practice asvab they give you at the recruiters office and i bombed it, scoring a 47 (better than the 39 i got when i was in high school haha)
The recruiter then told me about how i needed at least a 50 to enlist and that he recommended a 55 because if you flunk tech school for whatever reason, they'll give another shot at another job instead of just kicking you out.
Fair enough he told me to go home and study for 2 weeks so i did.
I studied so hard! focusing on math because thats my weakest area.
I texted my recruiter asking if i could come by after the 2 weeks had passed, he didn't reply but i showed up anyway and little did he know i would end up scoring a 73 this time around.
Now he was excited now he was going to take me seriously, because he would finally understand i want this really bad and I'm usually pretty good at getting what i want.
I was supposed to take the real asvab this past friday but his computer was failing and he was unable to schedule me.

EVERYTHING happens for a reason i was freaking out and i probably wouldn't have been as confident as i am now.
I bought the asvab cram plan on amazon. This book is great! though it only focuses on the AFQT subjects it does a great job at teaching you the basics. The best part is you learn and then do about 10 problems of practice to check your knowledge, which is what i love the most because its not just blah blah blah learn learn learn but to me practice makes me better.
We'll see how i do on the real thing though I'm almost halfway done with the book.
On monday ill give my recruiter a call to see when we can schedule my test for I'm keeping my fingers crossed for a 70 or above.



As for this website i found on many of my online practice asvab searches
 http://www.study-asvab.com/
Ive never been so disappointed i was looking for a site that would provide me which CAT-ASVAB like scenarios and at 39.99 i said what the heck it seems like a good deal and theres a 60 day money back guarantee so i have nothing to lose.
Nothing to lose my ass except for the 40 dollars i lost. Within minutes of being granted access with my purchase i see this is a scam, theres only 1 practice test and the "notes" are only 56 pages long with information i could have gotten off google dummed down! I email the company asking for a refund immediately and i still haven't gotten a reply. So I'm writing this to warn people because i looked for reviews before i made the purchase and i couldn't find any.
http://www.study-asvab.com/ ISNT WORTH 39.99
http://www.study-asvab.com/ ONLY HAS 1 CAT-ASVAB LIKE PRACTICE TEST
http://www.study-asvab.com/ DOESNT REPLY TO CUSTOMERS
http://www.study-asvab.com/ CONSUMER REVIEW

I hope my experience can save someone else those 39.99 because its not fair to scam people who's dreams depend on your product.

Someone please tell me

Please tell me it gets better how can my decision hurt so bad?
Why am I the one crying myself to sleep?
The nights are so dark, I can't help but to think of how amazing he was. sometimes I wish I had someone else to take my mind off of him, but I wouldn't have it any other way. I love him nobody else 😔

6th is when you admit you may have fucked up a little.

First, you think the worst is a broken heart

Yesterday he asked if i was breaking up with him today, i said yes it was best for the both of us.

Today he changed his relationship status and picture on facebook and it hits me harder than realizing what i had done yesterday.

It's actually happening it really is over and despite it being my decision, it hurts so bad. I try to tell myself that its for the best and i try to think of all the shitty stuff in our relationship but he was just so good it brings me back to tears.

I'm sorry Matthew Thomas Heinen i really did/ do love you.

I want you to know that it doesn't matterWhere we take this road someone's gotta goAnd I want you to know you couldn't have loved me betterBut I want you to move on so I'm already gone

Whats your story?

I cant believe i haven't blogged since May?
I started going out with Matt aka porn star June 9th. I didn't think it would last but here i am still with him almost 5 months later. Life works in funny ways. He's actually an amazing boyfriend or shall i say girlfriend, because he's basically the girl in this relationship and maybe thats what i needed.

Now onto my story...
Pretty sure the reason i started this blog was so once i was almost able to tell my story, id be able to share it and maybe, just maybe somebody would be able to relate to me.

You should probably know I'm an immigrant, i arrived here when i was 12.
NOBODY comes to the U.S and magically becomes legal, but there are ways to do so later on.
So i came here as a tourist and we decided to stay. I have been legal since i got here but being legal isn't enough, you see the thing with immigration policies is they seem simple but they are far more complex than the naked eye can see. Long story short this psycho path tried to kill my mom and it turned out there was a Visa that covered victims of abuse for collaborating with justice and being brave enough to speak up. It's called a U visa, so if you're an immigrant and a victim of abuse don't let people threaten you or be afraid of speaking up, if things are legit they will work out to your advantage.

In 2006 my mom sent the paperwork to immigration...2009 came along and immigration "hadn't received" our paperwork. Hard lesson learned always send important stuff through certified mail.
A U visa requires you to be under it for 3 years before you can apply for a Greencard. After 3 years based on your behavior they decide whether your worthy enough or not (nobody wants to grant such privilege to a parasite) So since they lost our paperwork we had to start over again which meant 3 more years of waiting. During this 3 years you're provided a work permit and a social security card number which allows you to work, get a drivers license etc.
It wasn't until a month before i graduated in 2010 that i found out that i would not be able to attend college because the missing piece of my puzzle, in order to qualify for in state tuition you need  a Green card, which i could get for 2 more years.
About 8 college acceptance letters my dreams were crushed, put on hold for 2 years after i graduated.
Words cannot describe how painful it is to work your ass off in high school for 4 years and not be able to collect its perks. I was not going to be able to go to college just yet, while all my friends went on and set out to reach their dreams. I was bitter, i was mad upset because i had accomplished so much for "nothing" as i used to say. I was so bothered by the lack of motivation the other kids displayed when they had so many possibilities! You can go to college, you can travel why aren't you doing something with your life other than getting pregnant, going to parties or doing drugs. I thought all of that was ridiculous! I really hated it/ hate it when people ask me if i go to school, when you say "no" you get the craziest look from people like what are you doing with your life if you aren't going to school? I was working my ass off to buy my car. Since i wanted to join the military, i told people i wasn't going to school because i was enlisting as soon as i felt ready to take the ASVAB again. That was a white lie because i am enlisting but the reason i haven't enlisted isn't because I'm waiting to feel ready, though i was not satisfied with my first ASVAB score but that is expired by now since i took it my junior year.
Anyway that story gets kinda old after almost 3 years, i know a lot of people don't take that answer seriously but sooner or later ill be able to show them.
I actually thought sooner would be this past monday when my mom went to pick up "our" green cards from the lawyers office, i was so excited the time was finally here! I imagined countless scenarios with an air force recruiter. I was going to walk in an let them know i was finally ready to cross into the blue, like the invitation i was sent after i took my ASVAB my junior year,which i still keep in my memory folder.
So that monday morning my mom had everyones green card except for mine...why me? me who's been waiting for 2 years to make something happen, me who had all the desire in the world to go see a recruiter that afternoon, me who finally wants to make a something happen!
Turns out they couldn't process my paperwork because they were missing the last 2 copies of my passport pages and that they wouldn't do anything until those were received. ARE YOU KIDDING ME? out of everyones paperwork why is mine missing pages when everything was sent through certified mail?
That same day my mom copied my whole passport in color and sent it in. Wednesday i got a text alert from immigration saying they had received my paperwork and that it could take up to 60 days for a review. Here we go again the waiting game, my mom thinks it shouldn't take that long but last time when i got that alert it did take almost 2 months... sigh.
Don't get me wrong i am so grateful for having this opportunity even if its taking forever.
I know there are kids out there who are waiting for nothing, because they don't have a something to wait for or a work permit to allow them to kill time, while they wait for that nothing that has no estimate as to when it will come; there are others who have everything, yet they don't take advantage of any it.
So I'm just here waiting for my something.

I'm a magnet for

liars obviously.
I don't know why people lie about stupid shit, well actually not even stupid shit but stupid non existent reasons.
So my buddy Matt aka the porn star in the making, as blogged about below
http://julistar15.blogspot.com/2012/01/reasons-why-i-love-my-blog.html
Contacted me again a little while ago after HE dropped the news on me and didn't text me again.
He told me a story about how he tried to kill himself that night he told me he did porn, because his parents saw the porn site where he was and confronted him about it and thats why he didn't text me again blah blah blah...
He said he was hospitalized for like a month or 2. I felt so bad because he had tickets to this concert he was really excited to go to and he didn't get to go to because he was "hospitalized"i also felt bad for deleting his number and not checking up on him (what kind of friend was i?)
Then a couple of days ago he adds me on Facebook and guess fucking what?
He went to that concert! So what does that tell me? Who the fuck makes up stories like that? Bull fucking shit, i felt bad for nothing! Once again maturity doesn't come with age and i might never understand why people lie about the most bizarre shit to get pity out of people.
Oh and he said he's joining the military too O_0
Hows that for a catch up.

Fuck you fuck you and fuck you a third time.

Nothing makes an afternoon better than a nice piece of duchebaggery, really it warms my heart.

Shit was so uncalled and that is all i have to say. How do you expect me to be your friend if your taking out all your ex gf, girl hating rage on me? As if my self esteem wasn't low enough i just needed that one blow. Needless to say i haven't talked to him since, i expect an apology! I tried to tell myself that i was over reacting way too many times. I consulted my dear douchebag kings coworkers and they came to the conclusion that this was uncalled for and asshole worthy, so FUCK YOU!

Then he said "Gotta appreciate a girl who's got a little sass with that ass ;) FIESTY!" blah blah blah he said he was kidding, i took shit seriously. Yesterday i saw my 2nd boyfriend ever, from like 8th grade he didn't see me haha i guess he hit puberty.Today i saw my ex boyfriend from back in the skatepark days. He dumped me after 5 days of "relationshit" The epic moment 15/14 year old me would have loved more than anything in the world! what any dumped ex girlfriend wants... The moment when the ex boyfriend openly admits he's an idiot because he let you go. HA!That was almost 5-6 years ago and i still remember exactly how it happened and what his "excuse" was shits crazy how things turn. Never in a million years would i have thought that id be in his room again. He wouldn't stop staring and me and calling me gorgeous. Things have changed, good riddance. Cigz and weed really fuck you up, he looks so much older and i don't even know how to explain it. Lets see he tried to kiss me when i was leaving... The whole hug and stare into each others eyes bullshit. I said no  no no you have a girlfriend (lucky for me i had an excuse to deny the kiss other than saying dude you look like crap stop smoking) then he denied it, so i pulled his profile up on my phone and he then said that she put that there blah blah blah. Kiss on the cheek and i was on my way :D

This night is sparkling...

I wish haha.
When I procrastinate i forget all the shit i was supposed to write about boo!
I'll see if i can make a list ahem:

*Being on your period + manager staying i have no personal life + sore legs + sales lead saying i can't go home at 4:45 when i'm scheduled until 5, yet my availability is clearly until 4:30 + a comment i can't remember = Me saying look at my eyes, I'm exhausted and tired of this shit. Im going to quit i don't know when or how but i can't take this much longer.

*The Hot Chelle Rae concert was amazing! I wish i had learned more of their songs before i went though.

*I bought 3 tickets for warped tour this summer 1 for me another for myself and one for I.

*I LOVE going to concerts, its the rush i get from screaming my lungs out.

*If i didn't screen shoot this profile i came across, what kind of person would i be considered? Ratchet! who puts shit like this up on Facebook 0__o I thought it was funny.

*I "gave up" frozen yogurt. It made me gain 15 pounds and by "made me" i mean ( it was so delicious i couldn't stop eating it.) Im hoping when i quit, the temptations will be over; ill have time to invest into being fit and ill get back to 110 crossing my fingers.

*In case that doesn't work i ran 3.5 miles on sunday, tuesday. Today since I'm so sore i can barely walk, i skated the 3.5. Why is getting fit so hard (whinneeeeeeeyyy biatch)

*When and if I'm satisfied with my body aka workout at least 4 days a week and be consistent. I shall reward myself with a shopping spree, I'm debating on whether i should invest in "classier" clothing since i dress more like a surfer/skater... Long hair don't care... Speaking of long hair i got my ends trimmed :p

*Because i actually pulled out all the food i carry in my purse and it might have shocked some people.
Oh hey my 2 ex boyfriends are making my coworker into a sandwich hahahahahaha.

*My coworker updated MY, MINE, MIO Facebook status asking guys for a date talking about i would pay. I borrowed his phone and googled hairy dick then posted it on his Facebook sounds mature enough. So there's a Troll war... He then posted this lovely picture of me doing what i do best...

*Another coworker texted me "I like you" after i said i hate him jokingly obviously. It took me all day to reply because i was flipping out and i still didn't have a reply to that so i did what men do best... avoid the questions they don't wanna answer and change the subject.

*Oh yeah and Happy Birthday Mr.Deployed ;)

This night is sparkling...

I wish haha.
When I procrastinate i forget all the shit i was supposed to write about boo!
I'll see if i can make a list ahem:

*Being on your period + manager staying i have no personal life + sore legs + sales lead saying i can't go home at 4:45 when i'm scheduled until 5, yet my availability is clearly until 4:30 + a comment i can't remember = Me saying look at my eyes, I'm exhausted and tired of this shit. Im going to quit i don't know when or how but i can't take this much longer.

*The Hot Chelle Rae concert was amazing! I wish i had learned more of their songs before i went though.

*I bought 3 tickets for warped tour this summer 1 for me another for myself and one for I.

*I LOVE going to concerts, its the rush i get from screaming my lungs out.

*If i didn't screen shoot this profile i came across, what kind of person would i be considered? Ratchet! who puts shit like this up on Facebook 0__o I thought it was funny.

*I "gave up" frozen yogurt. It made me gain 15 pounds and by "made me" i mean ( it was so delicious i couldn't stop eating it.) Im hoping when i quit, the temptations will be over; ill have time to invest into being fit and ill get back to 110 crossing my fingers.

*In case that doesn't work i ran 3.5 miles on sunday, tuesday. Today since I'm so sore i can barely walk, i skated the 3.5. Why is getting fit so hard (whinneeeeeeeyyy biatch)

*When and if I'm satisfied with my body aka workout at least 4 days a week and be consistent. I shall reward myself with a shopping spree, I'm debating on whether i should invest in "classier" clothing since i dress more like a surfer/skater... Long hair don't care... Speaking of long hair i got my ends trimmed :p

*Because i actually pulled out all the food i carry in my purse and it might have shocked some people.
Oh hey my 2 ex boyfriends are making my coworker into a sandwich hahahahahaha.

*My coworker updated MY, MINE, MIO Facebook status asking guys for a date talking about i would pay. I borrowed his phone and googled hairy dick then posted it on his Facebook sounds mature enough. So there's a Troll war... He then posted this lovely picture of me doing what i do best...

*Another coworker texted me "I like you" after i said i hate him jokingly obviously. It took me all day to reply because i was flipping out and i still didn't have a reply to that so i did what men do best... avoid the questions they don't wanna answer and change the subject.

*Oh yeah and Happy Birthday Mr.Deployed ;)

I'm fucked

Fuck someone found my blog.

Forever nice?

I can be kind of a bitch a times. I know i like getting things my way and when i don't, i get kind of upset.
When i was younger i manipulated situations, then i grew up -_-
Now I'm nice wtf?
Feeling bad for people, sympathizing and listening to their shit when they haven't given a shit about mine.
This is directly towards you Gineo if you ever find this:
How the fuck do you have the nerve to come to me with your girl problem bullshit after you didn't even bother to be there when my dog died? Takes some kind of asshole to complain about stupid ass girl when your friend is in pain. Actually its just selfish and i wish i was more like that but I'm too nice to be that way so i sit and listen to your whinny bitch like ways.
This applies to any guy out there:
1. If your seeing a girl and everything seems happy lalala best girl ever, then out of nowhere she stops talking to you as much IT MEANS SHE HAS FUCKING LOST INTEREST! or she's having doubts either way not interested!
2. If she dumps you with the following excuses : "I'm not ready for a relationship" "i've been screwed over so much i still need to heal" SHE HAS NO INTEREST! she's only trying to dump you in a nice way, because any girl in their right mind would not dump "Prince charming EVER!"
3.Girls are stupid, yes just as stupid as guys and we will get back with the cheating ex bf because of "love" and it takes someone pretty amazing to get us to say "NO!" to that ex boyfriend.
4. Last fuckinly. If she's back with the ex and she doesn't text you? DONT BLOW HER SHIT UP! nobody wants a dog licking their ass asking them questions "oh why? why him? why not me? what did i do wrong? oh oh"  how about you shut the fuck up and move the fuck on! Delete a bitches number and find someone else. Stop feeling sorry for yourself, its immature oh and posting on your Facebook sad songs and talking about how miserable you are now? That is so fucking 7th grade go find your attention somewhere else.
Ahhh feels good to have that off my chest :D

On being beyond emotionally unstable and falling to pieces

I can't remember the last time i was able to cry full on out loud without a care about who hears me (I've cried but its always silent, you know into my pillow)

Shitty attachment day at work.

Come home happy to have the afternoon to myself or whatever is left of it being home at 5.

The first thing i do when i get home from work is say hi to my dog, its weird but thats just the way it is. 

Today she wasn't there to greet me at the door; I walk in and ask where she is and my mom tells me she's in a coma.

I immediately break down and sit next to her for like an hour talking to her, petting her. My heart longed for a response so bad and i looked into her open eye for some sort of life, Her paws were cold and she was breathing, with difficulty but still breathing.

I ate and the headache brought upon by my tears put me to sleep for about an hour and a half.

Wake up and she isn't there anymore... She's gone forever... No more tail wagging, wake up licks, mailman  barks, no more anything.

Devastated doesn't even begin to describe how i feel, i don't know what to do with my self.

I love having no one there for me in times like this, i just wanna wake up from this nightmare

I love you Amber forever and always, gone but never forgotten <3

...and i don't want the world to see me, cause i don't think that they'd understand. When everything is made to be broken; I just want you to know who i am..

*Having your dog wake you up in the morning <3
*Having long mermaid hair.
*Making those around you laugh and happy.
*Being loved by random Black babies.

*Having a bad day at work.
*Seeing you coworkers "not boyfriend" surprise her with roses just because... and wishing one day that'll happen to you.

Nobody said it was easy... No one ever said it would be so hard...

Cute stuff!
I worked 9am - 10:40 p.m at BestBuy. It was supposed to be until 4 but since no one wanted to cover this guy's shift i volunteered, besides I'm used to working doubles now and i was having a good day with my attachments.
Went to Boston Market for lunch ? what a waste of money! i should have ordered chinese instead -_- lesson learned.
Ahhh thank my lucky stars and my niceness for starting off the month right with one postpaid broadband. My coworker usually 1. pretends she doesn't speak spanish or 2. wait until someone else helps the person even if the customer is in front of her and i can't deal with the whole ignoring shit. I usually give in and speak to the person first, because i don't wanna be rude and all...Today that scored me a broadband, so its all good!
She asked me about Mike (aka the guy i lost my virginity to) and i was like idk punk ass nigga! haha i haven't talked to him in a long time... 10 mins later she goes to lunch and he shows up? WHAT THE FUCK?!? talk about mind fucking. I can't even imagine what my face was like when i saw him again... its been what like 8 months since he took my shit and left? I'm clearly still affected by the events... Damn I was so shocked, then she came and he was still there so she gave me a look lmao like i thought she saw him before and i was thinking this biatch didn't tell me he was here! but she didn't see him, she was just as mind fucked as i was. No bald head, he looks just as he did when i tried to forget him. He left without saying bye.... what a surprise! Yeah not really.... That is so like him.

Have i ever mentioned how much i love working with my male coworkers? They are so sweet, complimentary and shower me with compliments here and there make me feel like the princess of the dpt :) King of douche bags aka one of my male coworkers still cracks me up with his adult "acne" I seriously need to record this guy saying the shit he says... He's worse than a proactive commercial before they got proactive! Then there's a picture of him so you can get a better picture... Just kidding i posted this on his wall and his friends said it was like him haha i was just messing around!

Now the highlight of my night was messing with my manager. I texted him asking him if the schedule for next week was final and he said yes... Then he asked me when he worked and i tried to mess with him telling him he came in at 6 am tomorrow, then i said he was scheduled to do counts with the new kid; He obviously didn't believe that so i told him the truth but the truth was boring. I took it to a whole new level when i took my other 2 coworkers phones and texted him asking why he had scheduled them to do counts when they had school.
He asked for a picture so i cut out pieces of the schedule and put them back so it looked like he had scheduled 4 people plus himself to do counts the next morning he fell so hard! (Now he knows how devious i can be muahahaha he shall never call me names again)
Thats what he gets for calling me smelly julie and drooly as if i was either of those!
Alright MTV yes i will bring PUNKD back and id love to take over Ashtons role just saying...
13 long hours of work later... I'm procrastinating my whitening strips and my facial wash so i guess ill go get shit done.




Xoxo Julieth

No i don't wanna mess this thing up, no I don't wanna push too far.

I love this song because pandora loves to torture me with it and the feelings it causes!

My kiss is cursed obviously, so no kisses for anyone.

                             

Why do i love frozen yogurt so much ahhhh! I come in peace frozen yogurt gods!

I feel like I'm gaining weight again boo! I'm a mess with no self control when it comes to food.

I will EAT you muahahaha

damn damn damn what i'd do to have you here, i wish you were here.


I really have nothing to say other than i worked 64 hours in total this week! booooyahhhhh 
Is it payday yet? why can't it be friday everyday?
I wanna pay my car off already. 
I wanna get my shit together.
I wanna enlist.
I wanna know what ill turn out like.
I wanna sleep in.
I wanna stop seeing these cute couples on my news feed, because its quite depressing!
I wanna not be scared of guys.
I wanna be swept of my feet.
I wanna please everyone.


I want too much.

Should have known better than trying to let you go cause here we go again

Yesterday was an awesome day!

*Drove 5 hours to go see Demi Lovato in concert with my bestfriend.

*Allowed the wind to play with my hair.

                             

*Had one of those huge turkey legs (i love those things haha)

*Asked some older folks to take a picture of us and they ended up taking videos.

*Went back to the car and took a nap, then woke up with a sunburn.

*Woke up to a missed call from my manager; Called back and he didn't answer. Called back 5 mins later...

He started off the conversation asking me how i thought the interview went. i said good; he said i looked nervous! No shit i felt myself get red and he said he saw it, then i’m like "dammit i had to be white!”

He said we needed to work on everyones interview skills. At this point i’m think shit just tell me i didn’t get it and stop sugar coating it! Then the most glorious words come out and he said we would like you to be a full timer. (insert angels singing voices here) YES YES YES! Took me a whole 11 months to climb up at BestBuy. Now the decision that lies ahead is whether to stay at PinkBerry or not :/ 

I feel like i care so much about my employers and i don’t wanna let anyone down. I work my butt off and it often ends in being screwed over by the company but ill give this 3 job thing a go. If i’m too tired ill give up PinkBerry, sorry David & Jeyson.

*Sat so close to the stage for the Demi Lovato concert, it was beautiful! some bitch told us to put out light up sign down... Demi Lovato saw it and said she loved it! Showed up on the big screen 3 times! my  neck veins were poping out haha from how much i was singing.

*Battled falling asleep behind the wheel, with cold AC and rock music.

Everything seems to be falling into place right now all i’m missing is a relationship and one more thing i have to accomplish hopefully that runs smoothly :X

Oh and i have to go to court for like a week on the case of that guy who beat the woman -_- i wonder how much they pay for your time there.

Xoxo Julieth

I never knew i could feel that much and thats the way i loved you.

Im so exhausted i don’t even know what to do with myself.
I had my full time interview today. At one point i felt tomato red, whenever i feel strongly about something i get nervous and my accent gets heavy, not to mention i probably get really red.
I think the part where i fucked up on was when i was asked if i was going to quit one of my other jobs, if i received the position i said no... I think my manager is worried i’m going to burn out, news flash i am already burned out! but i’m managing! If you couldn’t already tell then ill be fine.
Nonetheless I’m so glad the anxiety about that is finally over or almost over because i wont find out who got the position until friday :x AKA payday, Demi Lovato’s concert and my first official day off in 2 months

Listening to a song then reading the lyrics and realizing its not as sweet as it sounds.
I’m so out of it, sometimes i wonder what language i’m thinking in o_0



kissing in the pouring rain is definitely on my non existing bucket list;  I wonder what its like to feel the rain pouring down on me while i share a lovely kiss with a special someone <3

Oh won't you walk through, And bust in the door, And take me away..Oh no more mistakes.. Cause in your eyes I'd like to stay..

"Cause these words are my diary screamin' out aloud 
And I know that you'll use them however you want to”

I should really be sleeping because i have to be up for work at 6 am yet i have to make sure i’m ready for my 2 pm full time interview. I’m so scared and anxious! I want this but if i don’t get it the world isn’t going to end... luckily i have 2 other jobs to fall back on :D 

I officially owe my mom 2500 :D sooooooo close to paying this car off i can almost taste the sweetness of being debt free! Technically i could pay that but who wants a bank account with a couple of hundreds? not me, it makes me feel limited.

On other news my mom bought my siblings and I macbook pro’s with 3 year warranties! I feel kinda bad she spent so much money on me, when i have money to buy it myself (not that i was going to because my macbook is perfectly fine) but ill find a way to repay her. 

Princess Belle my favorite princess to be EVER! My favorite job to do! I love how my big dress sways back and forth, how girly i feel and imagining i’m a princess at a ball, waiting for prince charming to sweep me off my feet <3 I am such a girl! 

Dear you, I don’t hate you and its the opposite feeling...

I dont expect you to come back on here to read more and if you do these are the things i was afraid to say, because i don’t want to freak you out or push you away...

We have been friends all along so that isn’t an issue for me... what worries me is what is going to happen in the future? we can stay friends for a little while then what? What if i fall even deeper into this and end up being the one with a broken heart? I’m scared that’s all.

Xoxo Julieth