1. I hate creepy men! I went into work today with the goal of being pleasant to people but people just ruin it for the rest and its hard to fake being in a good mood.
2. The dude that’s a manager at McD’s and was taking pictures like a creeper the other day, he still scares me. He scares me so much i can’t even make eye contact with him. This really bothers me!
3. As if one creeper wasn’t enough this driver for my company hits on me the other day and he was old, head covered full of grays old -_- in my country we call those kind of men “viejo verde” dammit why cant they like people their own age or within their age range. Its gross!
4. I’ve been getting trained to lead party’s at my princess job, i’m shy but ill eventually get used to having the spot light on me and leading (i hope :/)
5. The other day i went to the fair with my friend we were on "boy search” the fair turned out to be babies r us, as in a bunch of middle and high schoolers (bummer!) But i did see joey there, he’s so tall and funny i was making fun of him the whole time. Before you think i’m a bully let me tell you, when i first met this kid at the party, i went over his house with another girl and he told his friends he was pulling "college ho’s” Ha Ha Ha i thought pulling meant getting girls, not just being friends with them ever since i mock his silly words. The point is i saw Daniel at the fair but he didn’t see me seeing him, but i’m sure he saw me when i was walking away or not paying attention; If not he definitely knew i was there because i said hi to one of his friends when his friend was alone (i wish i could have confronted him about the shit he said about me, but fuck it i don’t care)
6. I haven’t gotten a blue shirt yet but i started training on how to work the service desk, so i guess i got a promotion :D it wont be official until i get to see myself in that lovely blue shirt though.
7. I told myself i would be more compassionate towards people on Food stamps but fuck that, they bring it upon themselves damn NOBODY is really poor enough not to be able to afford food in this country at least and unless your a bum but that doesn’t count. It doesn’t make sense to me how you can have an iphone and not be able to afford food ?
8. Tomorrow i start week 4 of my pre air force bootcamp work out, even though i’m not even in the process of enlisting nor have i made up my mind about the branch i want to join. id like to be in shape for when the time comes around even if its a year or a year and a half away.
9. Im proud of myself for sticking to my workout routine for 3 weeks now, though i have mixed feelings about deciding to give myself the weekends off.
10. I’ve been debating on whether to splurge on an iphone4, if i do my phone bill will go up 40 bucks and i wont have unlimited minutes but i’m worth it right? when i die i wont take anything but my soul with me, so why not enjoy the money i work so hard for.
11. Today i finished reading this girls blog, she reminds me so much of myself. I felt like sometimes i was reading my own blog. She’s the anti me, the person that sometimes i secretly wished i was, like a "badass" for lack of a better word. She’s cool i hope i can become her friend or something (i know i sound like a creeper)
12. No matter how much i tell myself that i wont put my hopes up for mike because 1 he’s in the navy stationed god knows how many miles away from me and 2 he probably doesn’t feel the way i feel. Weeks can go by without us talking but as soon as he texts me or i get to see him on Skype my heart melts and suddenly its like i don’t care about all the negatives, because i’m enjoying the moment (for a little at least because it doesn’t last as long as id like it to) as for when he doesn’t talk to me i have memories to keep me hanging i guess, my favorite was when he was waiting at the airport to board his plane, it was like a 2 hr layover and he spent the whole time Skyping with me. He looked so handsome in his uniform like a little sailor <3
13. Dear John,
Two weeks together, that's all it took. Two weeks for me to fall in love with you <3 ahh i love this movie, i love this quote and i wish i could experience a love like that. Minus the deployment and the heartbreak.
14. 15..................1000. I miss Mike and i wish i knew how he feels about me :/ one thing is for sure i will NOT tell him straight up how i feel! Why? because i wouldn’t forgive myself if i scared him away and lost what we have (or what my heart thinks we have) what ever that might be. I know this is wrong if i freak him out just by telling him how i feel blah blah then he doesn’t deserve me or something like that, but i was the girl who went from boyfriend to boyfriend and i think the reason i’ve toned that down is because i get more emotionally attached, i have a hard time trusting guys or i’m more careful about peoples feelings (Fuck why cant i just be selfish) I haven’t had a boyfriend in like 3 years :o oh god i cant even remember when i had my last boyfriend (It’s that bad!) but no no no its my fault and i brought this upon myself, so when hell breaks loose or i get fucked over ill have to remember i caused it -_-
xoxo Julieth
Ughh that sucks, how did you do?
ReplyDeletehow did i do on what?
ReplyDeleteI mean how the you pull off through the day at work?
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