I don’t know why i’ve been so emotionally unstable lately, i can go from being happy to being all sad and shit. It’s not like i’m bipolar or anything just the things around me have been easily getting to me.
I don’t even know where to start, every time i’m going to write i go blank! it’s quite upsetting if you ask me.
Me and my Bestfriend are doing amazing, we are trying to make an effort to talk to each other daily. I miss her, I miss talking to her and I miss how she knows me well enough to understand what i’m feeling without me having to speak. I know girls are a lot to deal with and they are full of shit but i have been lucky enough to find 2 girls who i consider worthy of my trust.
My bestfriends name is Giselle we have known each other for almost 7 years and have been bestfriends for about 6 and a half and i say this because at one point she didn’t like me (I gave her a pepper lolipop, it was from my mexican friend... Apparently it tasted really bad and well it wasn’t the best first impression) Anyway at one point we became inseparable and we’ve been that way since, we don’t talk on the phone as much as we used to in middle school but thats understandable, because we both have responsibilities now as adults. If she ever reads this she will kill me for quoting her on this “If i ever do that i might puke on your dick” <- i literally laughed out loud at this because she’s a virgin as well so we don’t have any experience on those things.
It’s official remember my other friend who got her car a couple of weeks ago? Well she finally said i’m her bestfriend which i’ve known for a while because we told each other everything, gave advice and most importantly we’ve been there for each other when either one is down; I guess thats what real friendship is about being there when your needed the most.
Today was my moms birthday so my siblings and i went to the store where i work at and bought her a card, some flowers and a cake. We turned off all the lights and light the candles, we surprised her. Geez my mom is getting so old :o 44 already time just fly’s by. I wish i could be rich so she could just stop working and devote her time to doing what she loves.
I was supposed to go look at cars today but the weather was crappy, it rained a looot. I took a wonderful nap though, i love sleeping in the rain!
Tomorrow is payday yes! i still haven’t been to the orthodontist this month :# i need to make my appointment -$105 money money money. Bills are crazy it seems like just yesterday i paid my orthodontist, car insurance (for my invisible car) and phone bill. now a new month is just around the corner and well its time to pay up again. I hate bills and i know they are only going to get much worse as i get older, no wonder adults get gray hairs and wrinkles.
I had an interview at best buy saturday, the guy said i seemed to be really good with costumer service and that he would recommend me to the GM, he also said he would call me that day to schedule the 3rd interview but he didn’t call? i don’t know if that means i didn’t get the job or something? I’m scared, i really want the job but i don’t wanna call and bother them. Ill call the guy on saturday and remind him he was supposed to call me, just in case he forgot.
I finally talked to mike yesterday after about a month, funny thing though; the night before he texted me i had deleted all his text messages and stuff because well he didn’t talk to me for a month, so i figured he was sick of me or something.
He thought it was me displaying lack of interest at first, but i had to reming him that it was him who had to tell me when it was convenient for me to fly out and see him. Sometimes i wonder if i’m making too much of an effort isn’t the guy supposed to be the one willing to do anything for the girl? Eh i don’t mind, i understand he’s in the military and he doesn’t really have control over what he does.
Oh yeah and guess what he’s getting deployed soon :x in may or maybe sooner, lovely! that is sarcasm by the way. It sucks to think i might never get so see him.
Xoxo Julieth.
Yeah, military relationships are really hard to keep up. I would say, after the lovely little experience I had, that you should just let him be the one to do anything for the girl, because that's typically how a relationship rolls. See, with me and Zac, it was opposite. I always drove and spent the gas money to go see him. I was the one who made the efforts, and look how he ended up treating me. 99.9% of the time, guys are a complete waste of time, and you have to pick and choose from the guys that are and aren't there to waste it. In order to do that, you find the one that puts the most effort into seeing you, because that's not the girls job. Of course, military can make that a lot harder on him. But if it means something to him, he'll come for you. I promise.
ReplyDeleteAbout bills, yeah, they'll only get worse. Before I decided to go in the military, I was paying car payment, car insurance, and splitting the phone bill with my mom... AND paying for gas. When I'm getting out of BMT, I'm sure I'm gonna be paying full price for car insurance, on top of the same car payment, and I'm not going to be splitting the phone payment with Mom anymore, so there's more money down the drain there. Wait till you get your own place. There will be rent, utilities, water, electricity, cable and internet (if you have it).... bills just fly out of nowhere.
About the Best buy job, yeah it's best if you just call them. It may be annoying, but seriously, it makes a good impression. It says you want the job. For as long as I've worked in retail, I have never heard of any one of my managers not giving a job to someone just because they called too much. Yeah, it annoyed them. They even told me that when I was getting hired on, I annoyed the hell out of them by calling so much. But I got the job, didn't I? :D
Oh well. Our emotions get all out of whack and we all go crazy sometimes. You're not the only one. I was getting it pretty bad lately.
It’s so lame we don’t even have a relationship though, i don’t know where we stand and i’ve never been brave enough to ask. I guess i’m afraid that if i ask ill “lose him” yet i know that if it was me giving advice to someone else i would say that if he’s worth the trouble he will not mind my questioning. The advice you are giving me its the same advice i would give, its so easy to preach but hard to apply :/
ReplyDeleteThank you so much! I just called the guy and he told me he hadn’t been to work in 2 days, so thats why he didn’t get back at me, but then he told me he would call me back today and he didn’t. He also said to call him tomorrow morning so i most definitely will.
I guess i’m not crazy then, it’s quite comforting to know i’m not the only one who feels that way at times. It’s gotta be a girl thing, stupid hormones! i’d take being emotional(girl) over horny(guy) any day though lol
Hahaha absolutely. Guys are such dick weeds. Such inconsiderate little bastards when it comes to a girl.
ReplyDeleteYeah, I understand where it's hard to "practice what you preach" when it comes to handling a guy. I'm the one sitting here telling you to let the guy make the effort, when the whole time I was with Zac, I was playing that role. I guess I didn't want to see the ugly truth that maybe he wouldn't go all out to be with me, like he said he would.