Not so tough

No matter how strong I act, key word ACT; Im falling to pieces. If he only knew that when I fall asleep at night, hes the last person on my mind as I drift into deep sleep. My imagination has never been so vivid, a couple of days ago I saw him like he was passing right by me as he does at work. It scared me because i've never felt that way towards anyone before and maybe im over reacting but right now, right in this situation I feel like its okay to feel. He leaves friday, I still dont know how im going to manage to say goodbye. I wish time would just stop and stay still. </3 fmll (fuck my love life)