In tears...

In tears because the day I have to say goodbye to you is getting closer.
In tears because im scared to tell you how I feel.
In tears because im almost 100% positive you dont feel the same.
In tears because I put my hopes up and pictured the future instead of living in the present.
In tears because I wish you cared.
In tears because I let my pride get the best of me.
In tears because im probably the coolest girlfriend candidate but you'll never know.
In tears because im a girl who feels very strongly.
In tears because I am alone in this fight with myself.
In tears because this is the 2nd night im crying myself to sleep and that is not okay.
In tears because I let myself go so easily.
Lastly im in tears because I think I lost who I've been and im not sure how to find myself again. </3