Whatever i left out or whatever i can think of.

Before i posted this i was thinking to myself “man this might be a blog without pictures but then i looked down at my knee and found something picturable (not a word obviously) “ Agh i hate bruises they look so ugly! I probably got this today at police explorers, after the guy made us do so many pushups, my arms hurt as i held the steering wheel as i was driving home. I’ve never experience muscle failure like that or maybe my arms are terribly out of shape. I was so close to just walking off formation at police explorers today, because they were bitching about my nose ring, even though i had covered it with microporex. Well they don’t bitch about it at work, so why should they bitch about it at police explores? besides it ain’t like i’m getting paid or anything that’s just my time being volunteered. I had been thinking about leaving last week, but today they actually made us do PT and that was the main reason why i joined. I want someone pushing me to limits i didn’t think i could reach and they did today. So maybe ill come back next tuesday, ill make sure to ask before i show up if i HAVE to take the nose ring out, cause if i HAVE to ill just walk my little ass to the car and drive away never looking back, mhmm.

Oh yeah! a while ago, i meant to write about this girl who is in police explorers and the other day when they were randomly talking about rape, she told me she got raped when she was 12. My whole life i’ve been lucky enough to be sheltered from knowing these things actually happen to people, but now i’m  finding out; You never knowwho’s been through what and how they manage to still hold their head up high. Minutes before that i was judging the girl thinking she was a “freak” and i mean that in the sex freak kind of way, because she was talking to this other girl saying "i need to get me some” of course while this conversation was going on, i had to smile and pretend like i know what they are talking about; when in reality i’m a virgin, i don’t know shit about being a “freak” or craving sex, nor do i wanna find out with some random person and i most definitely don’t want to make my virginity a purity a public announcement, because you know how that goes “Awww your still a virgin that’s so cute” No its called being responsible, the best form of birth control is abstinence thank you very much! Anyways without getting off track here i was so shocked when the girl told me, i don’t know how to react to these kind of things, i didn’t know what to say. So i asked her if it was in Colombia, since thats where I’m from and thats where she’s from and thats not a rare thing to find out about over there. But i was even more shocked to find out it occurred here! the country where i begged my mom to move to after feeling unsafe at my own. She said that her friend (girl) took her to a party, drugged her and let 3 guys rape her, i couldn’t believe what i was hearing her “friend” set her up! The girl said that the next day she kicked the other girls ass but that doesn’t take away the fact that those guys not only rapped her but took her virginity away in the process. The saddest thing is this girl never told her mom... which in a way is good, because i cant imagine what a mom would feel like to find out her daughter was raped at that age or any age as a matter of fact; Yet i feel bad for the girl because she said she hasn’t gotten closure :/

Next, Today i worked 7 to 330 after working 330 to 1135 the previous night. There was a staff shortage and i had no lunch until about 5 when i got home, Im exhausted!

My friend Eli wrote me this on facebook chat
"i hope your doing okay

i think about how your doing everyday

jus thought i should let it out”

Damn i feel so bad an guilty right now for being such a bitch or acting this way, but he provoked it. Sigh i guess tomorrow i will apologize and tell him how i feel in the nicest way i can, he’s a good friend this shouldn’t be too difficult right?

Ps... i know where the bruise came from. I was fooling around on monday, because my coworker who’s like 4’ something was standing on a stool. So i tried to stand on it and me being 5’2 perhaps 3 i hit my knee on the service desk and i remember it hurting really bad! but i didn’t look ( i had to play it cool, i had a costumer)

Xoxo Julieth

The catch up...

I haven’t blogged in what seems life forever! i have sooo many things to talk about but i often get overwhelmed and for some reason i don’t post, so in this one post ill attempt to get everything thats happened out of the way. WARNING: (events will be in no particular order.)

 I met Miranda Cosgrove yesterday through this contest i won and now me and my friends are on the front page of my favorite radio station.

A while ago i won a guitar signed by Taylor Swift i never received the guitar apparently the front desk at the radio station made a mistake and gave it to the wrong person (bullshit someone stole it) So day i was at the radio station to meet Miranda i asked them for my guitar and my concert tickets (the concert tickets were a different contest, i got a phone call around november telling me i had won tickets to Taylor swifts concert, i didn’t know how because i didn’t remember entering a contest. The guy told me he would call me when the tickets were ready and he never called...) The lady in charge asked me if i had gone on the cruise.. “what cruise?” the Taylor Swift tickets were tickets to go on the first voyage of allure of the sea’s the biggest cruise ship as of now (Great i missed out on going to Atlantis and all that good stuff thank you whoever fucked me over again!) So the lady felt really bad and gave me 2 tickets to Taylor Swift this summer and 4 to Katy Perry which is awesome but i will NEVER get over missing out on that cruise :’( 

I went to the beach with my coworkers they are all black and it was HILARIOUS to hang out with them at the beach because they were so GHETTO and well people were definitely staring.

 

 

I know it’s a lot of pictures but don’t they say pictures say 1000 words or something like that :?

I’ve been working a lot it’s a bit overwhelming, most of the time when i’m off i just wanna be home doing nothing and this is obviously taking its toll on my friendships -_- or friendship i shall say actually its partly doing so eh you be the judge. My friend Eli recently pissed me off because he claims i never “hit him up”this is because he overwhelms me, he wants to hang out at least once a week! my god your not my boyfriend you don’t  have the right to demand ANYTHING! I’m sorry i’m too tired to do anything geez! he always tells me about his girlfriends "being on his dick” but he’s on mine. I haven’t replied to any of his texts or bbm’s, i haven’t answered phone calls either. He’s not making the situation any better. He says i’m his best friend blah blah blah its all bullcrap because he calls everyone his bestfriend! the word really has no meaning, so screw it i will talk to him when i’m ready to.

My dog is so cute and lazy!

The other day i was a clown at my job, it was my first time and i felt so weird :p

 

When i took the last picture i thought man if i was from those times in which they wore pants that high i would look darn good, those are man jeans by the way.

This is my friends brother taking a ketchup shot, pretty gross but oh so funny to watch.

I think that concludes my catch up blog.

Xoxo Julieth

Im so tired and i wanna write but at the same time i don’t.

Last night i must have gone to bed at like 9 because at 12 i woke up and had a hard time falling asleep. It sucked. On the bright side i had time to ponder on things and i randomly realized, I’m kinda being bullied at work and i just realized it. Im appalled at how long i’ve let this go on heres the story:
So there’s this girl that used to be in my english class in 11th grade, one day i had the misfortune of being put in a group with her and some other lazy bitches; since back in high school i was really picky about my grades and group projects (i always did all the work because no one can do a better job than yourself and i’m an extreme perfectionist on what i turn in) i worked all class long and about 10 mins before class ends these ignorant fucks have the nerve to demand to see my work to copy! (oh sure just cause your black and scary ill let you copy my work, lets take advantage of the “white girl”) I don’t know where i got the courage from to stand up for myself and say NO! when i tell you these bitches hated me from that day, its an understatement. Oh and the next day my 50 note cards for my research paper went missing from my teachers desk before he saw them FML (oh what a coincidence) I bet it was those girls who got rid of them. I cried my eyes out and the teacher gave me until the next day to turn them in. I stayed up until 3 am and cried some more, mostly because i was angry and i couldn’t prove or do anything about this “coincidence”
Anyways, even though my school is about 30 mins from where i live and 40 from where i work; I would be lucky enough to find out the girl who hated me worked there too (I didn’t work there at the time though) When i started working there she was friendly and stuff, i was relieved she had forgotten our fall out (I don’t need someone making my life miserable at work) but i wouldn’t mention all of this if there wasn’t a point. She’s a bully and i have just realized it, she’s always telling me what to do (No please or thank you) oh pick this up, go get this, go get that and she doesn’t just say it sometimes she kinda pushes me too. She’s a blue shirt and i remember when i was being trained to be a cashier, they told us that just because someone is a blue shirt it doesn’t give them the right to treat us unfairly. Well i am being treated like crap by this girl, i just recently acquired a blue shirt and through this realization i will make changes and stand up for myself once again, no matter what the consequences are bring it on! Everyone at work knows i’m the nicest person ever anyway so fuck it.
2 days ago this costumer made me so mad i had to take several deep breaths, because i could feel my face getting red.
This little dumb ass who works for the same company as me, but doesn’t work at my store, comes to it to cash her check; she had like 5 checks and she was taking her sweet ass signing them. So i take the other persons lotto, while she signs and take care of 2 people then she starts bitching about how i skipped her and the lady was complaining and i took care of her. So i said YOUR COMPLAINING AND IM TAKING CARE OF YOU! then she goes on about how i’m racist cause she’s black and i took the white costumer blah blah SO IGNORANT even another costumer who came after she left said so, she was like she’s so pathetic (that made me feel a little bit better).
Today my day went just like every other day goes at work...Other than the fact my supervisor said that the store manager said i looked dead and that i was going too slow (no shit i’m training and well morning shifts tend to make you rise from the dead) i guess ill try to speed it up and look more alive -_- Damn but i’m just not the outgoing type really, only sometimes and its very rare.
I haven’t talked to Mike in a while, i texted him the other day and he didn’t reply... Fuck it i wont text him first EVER again, i hate hoping for a text back so whatever happens shall happen. If he misses me he’ll make and effort to text me, because no matter when i see the texts he sends me, even if its the next day ill still reply and well thats clearly not the case with him. geez its 12 no wonder i feel so tired!
Ps.. my new camera is supposed to arrive tomorrow YAY! and its payday double score!


Xoxo Julieth

You open my eyes and i’m ready to go lead me into the light.

Today was my day off. I woke up around 11 and did nothing all day but read this blog i came upon by this guy who joined the army. I usually wouldn’t read a guys basic training experience blog, simply because its not something i can look forward to relating in the future or anything but i decided i should read this one and it was a good decision the following are my favorite parts:


"...We wait for chow and soon we ate of course and I was given my Miltary Glasses. I swear to God these glasses suck ass I'd tell you what these glasses are thick and brown and look like the ones from Revenge of the Nerds. Damn I look ugly in those!” I laughed a little when i saw this. I’ve seen mike wear those and they are pretty ugly but they looked so good on him :p he looked like a cute nerd.


"...anyways then we were told to wait outside. 40 of us Privates waiting outside for our trans to come along. Hm...guess what our transportation was a cattle car, wow I expected a bus like I saw on goarmy.com but I guess not.” OMG i almost died of laughter when i read this, jesus i couldn’t believe he would be naive enough to think that things were really like on goarmy.com i’m guessing he didn’t really do his research before he left and to be honest if i didn’t do any research i would probably expect the same thing too.


Other than that my day was ruined why? because i found out that a couple of weeks ago when my friend dropped my camera it broke forever, as in i couldn’t fix it when i took it apart and put it back together. The whole day i was trying to tell myself not to hold a grudge (I’m good at that, scary good) why is it that my shit always gets broken by someone else? 
Last weekend i went skating with my coworkers and i took my camera with me, i ended up leaving it in the locker because i was afraid that if i fell, i would break it. Being the luckiest person in the world, as i am about to leave my stupid coworker takes the shit out of the locker and whats the first thing to fall to the ground from like 4 ft up? yup my camera FML and it wouldn’t turn on.
3 years ago before i bought this camera my other stupid friend dropped my camera into the pool... What the hell i’m getting a new camera and i’m not letting ANY fucktard touch it, idc what they say!


On a happy note my dear friend Lesly got her first car today! yay! a 2010 toyota corolla its lovely! I’m happy for her if you couldn’t tell by all the exclamation marks i’m leaving all over the place. Which brings me to the realization that i haven’t discussed any of my best friends here. I consider Lesly a bestfriend without the label, like i tell her everything and she knows a LOT about me, we just never call each other bestfriends. Probably because we have bestfriends on the side if that makes sense. Like she has her labeled bestfriend and i have mine.


Anyways i gotta go to work tomorrow 815 to 415 -_- on the bright side its payday and police explorer day, so hopefully that gets me through the day.




P.s im currently obsessed with the song above and i just realized Mike is an alien he is so hypnotizing, infects me with his love (not really love just the way he makes me feel lol) and fills me with his poison. For him ill risk it all <3


xoxo Julieth

just another entry i guess.

It feels like forever since i’ve written on here and to be honest i don’t remember every single detail about what my days have been like since i wrote my last entry so ill number the things i remember.

1. I hate creepy men! I went into work today with the goal of being pleasant to people but people just ruin it for the rest and its hard to fake being in a good mood.

2. The dude that’s a manager at McD’s and was taking pictures like a creeper the other day, he still scares me. He scares me so much i can’t even make eye contact with him. This really bothers me!

3. As if one creeper wasn’t enough this driver for my company hits on me the other day and he was old, head covered full of grays old -_- in my country we call those kind of men “viejo verde” dammit why cant they like people their own age or within their age range. Its gross!

4. I’ve been getting trained to lead party’s at my princess job, i’m shy but ill eventually get used to having the spot light on me and leading (i hope :/)

5. The other day i went to the fair with my friend we were on "boy search” the fair turned out to be babies r us, as in a bunch of middle and high schoolers (bummer!)  But i did see joey there, he’s so tall and funny i was making fun of him the whole time. Before you think i’m a bully let me tell you, when i first met this kid at the party, i went over his house with another girl and he told his friends he was pulling "college ho’s” Ha Ha Ha i thought pulling meant getting girls, not just being friends with them ever since i mock his silly words. The point is i saw Daniel at the fair but he didn’t see me seeing him, but i’m sure he saw me when i was walking away or not paying attention; If not he definitely knew i was there because i said hi to one of his friends when his friend was alone (i wish i could have confronted him about the shit he said about me, but fuck it i don’t care)

6. I haven’t gotten a blue shirt yet but i started training on how to work the service desk, so i guess i got a promotion :D it wont be official until i get to see myself in that lovely blue shirt though.

7. I told myself i would be more compassionate towards people on Food stamps but fuck that, they bring it upon themselves damn NOBODY is really poor enough not to be able to afford food in this country at least and unless your a bum but that doesn’t count. It doesn’t make sense to me how you can have an iphone and not be able to afford food ?

8. Tomorrow i start week 4 of my pre air force bootcamp work out, even though i’m not even in the process of enlisting nor have i made up my mind about the branch i want to join. id like to be in shape for when the time comes around even if its a year or a year and a half away.

9. Im proud of myself for sticking to my workout routine for 3 weeks now, though i have mixed feelings about deciding to give myself the weekends off.

10. I’ve been debating on whether to splurge on an iphone4, if i do my phone bill will go up 40 bucks and i wont have unlimited minutes but i’m worth it right? when i die i wont take anything but my soul with me, so why not enjoy the money i work so hard for.

11. Today i finished reading this girls blog, she reminds me so much of myself. I felt like sometimes i was reading my own blog. She’s the anti me, the person that sometimes i secretly wished i was, like a "badass" for lack of a better word. She’s cool i hope i can become her friend or something (i know i sound like a creeper)

12. No matter how much i tell myself that i wont put my hopes up for mike because 1 he’s in the navy stationed god knows how many miles away from me and 2 he probably doesn’t feel the way i feel. Weeks can go by without us talking but as soon as he texts me or i get to see him on Skype my heart melts and suddenly its like i don’t care about all the negatives, because i’m enjoying the moment (for a little at least because it doesn’t last as long as id like it to) as for when he doesn’t talk to me i have memories to keep me hanging i guess, my favorite was when he was waiting at the airport to board his plane, it was like a 2 hr layover and he spent the whole time Skyping with me. He looked so handsome in his uniform like a little sailor <3

13. Dear John,

Two weeks together, that's all it took. Two weeks for me to fall in love with you <3 ahh i love this movie, i love this quote and i wish i could experience a love like that. Minus the deployment and the heartbreak.

14. 15..................1000. I miss Mike and i wish i knew how he feels about me :/ one thing is for sure i will NOT tell him straight up how i feel! Why? because i wouldn’t forgive myself if i scared him away and lost what we have (or what my heart thinks we have) what ever that might be. I know this is wrong if i freak him out just by telling him how i feel blah blah then he doesn’t deserve me or something like that, but i was the girl who went from boyfriend to boyfriend and i think the reason i’ve toned that down is because i get more emotionally attached, i have a hard time trusting guys or i’m more careful about peoples feelings (Fuck why cant i just be selfish) I haven’t had a boyfriend in like 3 years :o oh god i cant even remember when i had my last boyfriend (It’s that bad!) but no no no its my fault and i brought this upon myself, so when hell breaks loose or i get fucked over ill have to remember i caused it -_-




xoxo Julieth

Your a redneck heartbreak who’s really bad at lying, so watch me strike a match on all my wasted time as far as I’m concerned your just another picture to burn!

Wow that could be the longest blog title ill ever post, but i had to get the point across. I didn’t want to devote a blog to this guy but dammit I’m upset so i gotta do, what i gotta do to drain my anger.
Here’s and exert from what i wrote a while ago on another blog: 

"Teenagers are so weird I don’t understand why I like this kid so much maybe it’s the thrill of the chase? A month ago he asked me out and I was like your kidding? then he said he was and then I didn’t talk to him for like 2 weeks, but that day he told me sometimes he sees me as more than a friend others he doesn’t, ugh so many mixed signals I don’t even know what to think,  when we were driving to his house so he could change and go to the movies he like put his hand on mine at the stop light  ahhh also sometimes when I feel jealous he hugs me like to comfort me or I don’t know, like today I was sitting in his kitchen by myself and he came in and was like: what are you doing alone, im like reading then he just hugs me (confused face) I need a psychologist with this kid lol. Other than that we went to watch jackass it was very jackassish good if your into hitting and gross stuff lol i didn’t realize how much fun it is to hang out with guys, like it was me and 4 guys, guys are just so carefree and funny to watch in their environment, they tell me everything not going to lie it feels good to find out what the likes and dislikes of guys actually are. like they would openly take a girl who doesnt respect herself, but that doesnt mean they respect her and boy do they trash talk Sluts :o. So one of the guys i was hanging out with at the movies is having a party on saturday im so excited idk what to wear. like its funny how when i was in high school i didnt ever go to a party, and now that ive graduated ill get to experience what a high school party is like :p probably a bunch of drunk teens doing things they are not supposed to -__- im really hoping i dont regret going, since i dont drink,smoke or have sex so i might be putting myself in a potentially awkward situation, im kinda testing my will power lets see if i keep my straight edgeness under pressure. “ 

I figured id write my analysis of what i wrote months ago in Blue lets see, I cant believe how happy i was when i was writing that stuff, well partly happy mostly confused and hopeful but screw that! I did end up going to that party and you’ll read about it bellow.

"For those who have read my blogs omg omg Dan kissed me tonight im speechless still im in shock like i dont even know what to do with myself right now ahhhhh i cant type i have that feeling in my stomach so ill tell you guys about it tomorrow omggggggg

also my hair is pretty right now and my friend is taking me surfing in the morning(my hair will get messed up)  

goodnight you guys ahhh <3

ps ive waited for his moment for about a year now, so good things def come to those who wait.”

Sorry the colors and the sizes are messed up, i didn’t want to tamper with the size’s and such. I think they add an effect and allow you to infer how i was feeling. I did go surfing the next day, my hair did get messed up and the waves were so big i couldn’t even ride one heck my arms were hurting so bad paddling out i went back to the shore (Ps sharks were on my mind the whole time, i had to get out!)

"Unfortunately the high off the kiss has worn off, after having a talk with my bff ive come to the realization that i might have messed up aghh damm it why did i let him kiss me :’( what if he just says he was drunk and it was a mistake or something im kinda depressed now...

please someone give me advice!!!! ahhh”

Oh yeah big mistake!

"I'm on my phone as a type this I usually hate typing long things on my phone but at this point I will do anything to forget what's on my mind right now. So I said I would blog on last nights details so here it goes... Hen was being a dick as usual before I got to the party because I rejected him again, he thinks because he keeps on trying that I'm going to change my mind -__- despite that he knows how I feel about Dan. So after I rejected him he txt me saying idk what ur going to do at the party then! Obviously it was my first party and I didn't know anyone but the birthday boy, hen and dan. So I was flipping out like I thought about not going but then I thought to myself and I was like are you stupid!? Go and be friendly and meet new people! So when I got there I called hen so he could walk in with me he came out but when we walked in he like walked ahead and really fast so in my head I'm just thinking this lil bitch! Then he tells dan I'm there and dan says hey and then goes back to his beerpong or w/e then I was just stood alone for like 2 seconds and this dude came out of nowhere and asked if I was single so I was like yes and then he gave me his number scooooore! Obviously hen saw this and told dan then they mocked me about it, then another dude who was collecting the money for the beer pong introduced himself. Then henry being the lil bitch he is turns his back on my and pretends he doesn't know me, so this dude on crutches goes woah there's some tension there and I was like nah he's just being a dick. So I make friends with him his name is joey so we went to sit down cause he was tired and we talked for a while til dan came and tried to hug me, he was drunk so I was like ur not driving so give me ur keys. Then he goes back to some more beer pong. Joey was with me for a while now, thank godness other wise I would have been standing around like hen looking like an idiot with his arms crossed karma is a bitch and I'm glad she made her appearance last night. Blah blah more talking with joey then comes dan out of nowhere hugging me and kissing my arms, my back, my neck, my cheek all over me like he's my boyfriend or something so he scares the guys away. then when I was sitting on his lap I was like this makes me look bad and he goes don't worry about it I've told them that I've been talking to you for 4 months now, this whole time he's trying to kiss me on the lips but I kept on turning away cause hen and joey were right there watching. Then joey asked me for a ride home so I said yes and hen told dan or whatever then it was time to go and they were sleeping over the bday boys house so then hen walked me to my car with joey and I was like oh tell dan thanks for saying bye and then when I was about to turn at the corner hen calls and says that dan wants to say bye so I was like ill drop joey off and come back. When I came back they hug me and dan kisses me on the lips like 3 times. Hen says aw cute I'm jealous and I go home happy as can be. This morning I wake up at 6 to go surfing mind you I went to bed at 4 feeling regretful so I'm exhausted then I get a text from dan that says "Heard i kissed u n was all over u last night, sorry about that i didnt mean too i was drunk it was my fault i shouldnt have done that" ouch ouch ouch I was just falling asleep (nap) so I wake up and I'm in the I knew this would happen mood I'm so sad right now I replied with "k" like what else am I supposed to say :'( I wanna cry, but then I don’t. I feel like an idiot.

Wow the way i described those events made me sound so bad! when Daniel was kissing all upon me it wasn’t anything sexual or anything it was just little pop kisses. I think i did cry for a little while, but then i got over it. I don’t remember how, i believe it was when i met casey but whatever. I think Daniel, Henry and I hung out after the kiss incident like nothing ever happened. Henry being the scumbag he is tried to mock the kiss thing and torment me, but i didn’t care, it was a mistake, i enjoyed the moment and i knew that i shouldn’t have done it. (well yes and no, i doubted myself)

Boy did i look happy back in the day, Yeah that’s Daniel and here’s Henry aka my worst nightmare. I wouldn’t post all of those pictures and blog exerts if there wasn’t a point. Basically Henry hit my 11 year old brother, my mom forbid him from coming over. The girl in the picture with me (daniel’s ex) told Henry’s and Daniels sensei about the incidents, The sensei beat the shit out of Henry along with all the others in karate. Henry and Daniel hate me (I personally don’t give a shit) Until these 2 asshole’s started spreading rumors about the stuff i would “do” with them, Lovely! thats what i get for hanging out with boys who are still in high school. Oh so immature Dammit, Grow the fuck up and stop spreading shit (as if they were here sigh) I work so hard to keep a clean image (I lie, i didn’t work hard because i don’t do anything, i’m just good) Now the people at the dojo think i’m some kind of slut, not like it matters because 1 its not the truth and 2 ill never meet them or anything like that but it still hurts a lil. I would have expected that from Henry, since you know when you reject people they tend to be bitter, but hey Daniel rejected me and i didn’t go around spreading crap about him, all i said was i only liked him for his muscles and i didn’t know what i saw in him, which is the truth and i only told a close girlfriend.

(I guess i couldn’t tame the immaturity in me, but at least i didn’t let it go wild) Daniel spreading crap shocked me. Another reason why i was into Daniel was how much of a gentleman he was, i thought he was pretty mature for his age and such. He would drive me home from his house, wait until i was safe inside the house and shit. It’s not much but it’s the little things that matter the most (At least to me) I swear if i ever see these 2 again i’m going to give them a piece of my mind and perhaps a slap in the face. (I always kinda wanted to do that, but not really i hate hurting people physically and emotionally) Now a song to fully close this chapter ta da da da da who’s better than Taylor Swift to express girls feelings all over the world yay!


Xoxo Julieth.

Just wondering...

Is anybody out there? Like does anybody actually read this? (Not that it would really change anything, I’m still going to write whether i have an audience or not) The reason i asked was mainly impulse, no particular reason actually, other than just having finished watching "Julie and Julia” for those who don’t know, its that one movie about a girl cooking her way through a famous “chef” and blogging about it.

Before watching Julie and Julia I watched Precious. I love movies with “happy endings” but that’s not the reason why i chose to blog about it, quite frankly this movie made me feel shitty in the "I’ve been an ungrateful little brat and i haven’t been putting myself in other peoples shoes”

Every time i come home complaining about a person who ruined my day at work, mother oh so wise always tells me "you don’t know what other peoples lives are like” She’s right I’ve had an amazing life. I’ve been fortunate enough to be given a mother who puts her kids in front of everything, she has always worked so hard to give us everything we need and some things we want. (No need to get off track here though, ill tell you about how amazing my mom is on a mothers day blog or something fully devoted to her) Anyway Precious had a tough life and it made me realize that I’ve been judging people very harshly. Sorry to say but every time i get someone coming through my line with food stamps; I think that person is just munching off the government and being lazy! which is true a certain percentage of the time, but i’m wrong there is people out there who legitimately need help and i shouldn’t generalize people like that. From now on i will try my hardest to have no thoughts on the food stamp matter while i’m dealing with people, keep my cool and know that not everyone is honest nor can everybody afford to pay for their food.

How could i forget my favorite part of the movie was when Precious said this quote "The other day, I cried. But you know what? Fuck that day. That's why God, or whoever, makes other days.” Yup i thought i wouldn’t forget this quote since i liked it so much, but then i found myself googling it before posting (shame on me!) 
I wanted to listen to some Ashlee Simpson, but her music sounded good in my head not when i actually listened to one of her songs on youtube dammit -__- So Aly and Aj it is. I need to get my lazy butt and go get my workout and shower.
About yesterday, uhh it was a long day work 8 to 4. Payday so i had to go to the bank and deposit then it was police explorer time, met some kids that weren’t there at the last explorer meeting. Met another cop he asked me a bunch of questions then warned about my street (no kidding 8 burglaries within a couple of months) He said it was just a bunch of teens (WTF!?) I have to hide all my shit (actually just my laptop) before i leave the house cause i’m scared someone will break in and take it. Now i find myself still being paranoid every time i hear my dog bark, i cant wait until we get this alarm system installed. I really don’t like giving out personal information i’m so paranoid now a days, the cop asked me about my mom and what she did i lied, i don’t need to be telling people my family’s business. He did ask if she was single and i said yes, then he asked if she was hot? uh idk i don’t like judging people, beauty is in the eye of the beholder, so don’t ask me! He said he was kidding in the end (Yeah right there’s truth behind 99% of the just kiddings at least a lil bit of truth) I have been thinking about hooking her up with him, I wanna see my mom happy. She’s been heartbroken for like a year now, ugh it pains me to see her sad. Like for some odd reason i feel like teens are the only ones who experience this breakup depression, expectations and hopes kind of crap but noooo adults are just like teens, they just look older and have a LOT more responsibilities to take are of. Really all i want is everybody to be happy is that too much to ask :/ ? (Don’t answer that!)




Update :
This kid from police explorers textes me and asks “so whats your boyfriend like?”
Then i reply “Oh he’s amazing,sweet,good looking, physically fit, honest and all of that good stuff a girl asks for. Oh and most importantly he doesn’t exist lol”
Yeah gotta love clever responses. Until you have to explain why you don’t have a boyfriend, as if it was a shocker: then its just plain sad.
Update #2:
If only Mike knew how much his texts make me smile, like really they make my day!
...Just tell me anything babe. I miss you, most of all. Aw you really know how to put a smile on my face.  I hate allowing myself to feel this way, I’m going to end up getting hurt eventually. I really shouldn’t be so negative but its the truth. 
Xoxo Julieth