Too many things.

A lot of things have been happening lately, I’ve been too overwhelmed to write but heres my shot.
Lets address the topic of my resignation. a week ago on thursday best buy called me and let me know i had passed my drug and background check (No surprise there obviously) i just didn’t think everything would happen so quickly. I freaked out and immediately drove to the grocery store where i work at and asked the front end manager if we could talk, she asked me if i could come in and help out with the go back carts, then said we would talk when i came back.
I made it back within 30 minutes and she said lets go talk, aghh i was like damn i didn’t even have time to prepare myself psychologically for what i was about to do. Not going to lie the reason why i didn’t notify her sooner was because i didn’t wanna not work, i know bills are going to be crazy now that i have a car and i wasn’t going to risk going crazy at the end of the month or whenever these bills are due.
So i told her i got a new job and she said well don’t you already have a job? and i was like yes this is my 3rd one and she said well how are you going to fit that into this schedule? you wont be able to do that, i trained you for CSO and blah blah. I told her i would let her know on saturday; sunday she called me and asked me if i was coming into work on monday and i said yes i would finish the days i was scheduled for this week.
Monday after staying 30 mins past my shift because there wasn’t another cashier. I called her (front end manager) and asked her if i needed to write a resignation letter and she said no, i was going to be terminated and be put as “abandoned the job” because i didn’t give a week notice and i said well if i work until thursday its technically a week, she said it didn’t matter and i told her I cant have this stuff on my record, i’m trying to join the military! and she said talk to the store Co director (the guy who told me they didn’t need me and that in order to quit all i had to do was write i quit on the piece of paper) great at this point with a broken voice and tears in my eyes i said ok! and walked really quick out the store and to my car, another manager came and knocked on my window and said everything would be okay, that they could terminate me on good or bad terms. I went home and the first thing i did was chat with a recruiter on the air force website and ask him if a termination would affect my chances of joining and to my relief he said no.
I was outraged at what had happened to me after all the sacrifice and devotion to this job (my first job) so i decided i wasn’t going to come in on wednesday as scheduled because they screwed me over and i was going to do the same thing to them.
That night a coworker called me after seeing my status on facebook "I’ve never felt so hurt or betrayed in my life! Nice people get taken advantage of and fucked over. In the end your just a number and numbers are easily replaced. I cant believe i devoted so much to a treacherous company and an egomaniacal manager, but it’s alright because what goes around comes back around.” She asked me what was wrong and i told her, keep in mind the majority of the workers at the store are african americans (There is probably 10 white people who work there, one of them is the big boss the Store director) I get along with everybody despite their race, its irrelevant to me. Anyway my coworker is obviously black and she said honestly your white talk to the store director he’ll understand you, we went over things that were done to me by the other managers and how unfairly i had been treated and i jotted them down (When i get emotional i tend to leave out details and i refused to keep these things in any longer) The next day at 7 am i was calling the store and asking the Director when i could come in to speak to him, he said anytime; I was on my way faster than he could say Bye.
I started off the conversation asking him if he was aware of my resignation and he said he had no idea (big deal considering he’s the guy who runs the whole store) so i proceeded to tell him reasons why i was resigning.
*one of the managers told me they didn’t need me.
*another one was gunning for me and saying i was dumb or stupid.
*the other one was determined to make this go as if it was a termination dammit!
The whole time i’m going into detail about these things my voice is practically broken, i’m finding it hard to articulate the words because of the anger and hurt i was feeling. He took notes and said he would take care of it, he also asked me if i was going to stay? I said no because i’m sure i would get treated differently, i didn’t want these 3 angry managers making my life miserable!
Fair enough wednesday came around and i went to work, managers didn’t say anything. The front end manager actually asked me to come in early, i said yes! money is money and anything extra helps. At one point the front end manager said she was no longer working at the store, i was shocked and i felt guilty like i had something to do with it (i know she has a family to take care of!) i was relieved to find out she just got sent to another store. As i was clocking out for lunch the Store director called me into the office and let me know she was out of the store and asked me to consider staying, call him back in 2 days to see if i’ve made my choice; he said he didn’t know who the new front end manager would be but they would try to work with my hours. If they are willing to work with my hours i will go back, simply because i owe my family almost 10,000 for my car and id like to get that paid off as soon as possible.
Best buy is awesome, i’ve been doing Learning things on the computer and such. The 3 girls i got hired with a pretty amazing, its like we are a little family 3 musketeers. I still haven’t fully opened up, i’m really horrible at making new friends and i’m not used to the attention i guess you can say. They asked me to go clubbing with them tomorrow or technically today, but i’m not the clubbing kind of person... Heck i don’t even know how to dance! but i told them id see.


Xoxo Julieth