I look forward to today(saturday) ALL FUCKING WEEK! because i was supposed to go out with "Mr. Enchanted", i confirmed with him the night before and set a time to pick him up (3 pm). Woke up at 9, cleaned the shit out of my car like spotless clean; came into the house to find out he texted me saying he “got called into work” i put a sad face and he didn’t text back. So at around 4 i texted him asking him if he was off yet... "Oh i get off at 6 p.m tomorrow” (split that into 3 to 4 texts because all he textes me are one word answers) Reschedule? his answer was “possibly” what do you mean? “idk possibly” ok...
Waited until my Bestfriend came over and read the texting history between us and deleted it, along with his number (because thats what angry me does).
I also feel really guilty about the other guy, his friend whom i was supposed to meet in the first place. The tough front is obviously not working out...
I texted his friend, despite blowing off meeting me or getting cold feet whatever it was. He actually textes me or did until i asked him to call me so i could talk to him about something important ( i was about to confess hooking up with his friend) but he didn’t reply or call so that goes to shit.
I also was texting the wrong guy yesterday who happened to have the same name as "Mr enchanted" on my phone (i didn’t pay attention to the last name) made a date with him kinda, because i thought he was somebody else and fucked shit up with him, he asked me to delete his number off my phone.
So thats me FUCKING SHIT UP left and right!
So who’s next?
So who’s next?
Ill just go cry myself to sleep no biggie, thats all i wanna do right now... I haven’t cried since i lost my virginity so i’m due for a good cry.
