Single awareness day!

That’s what we single people call valentines day or at least thats what’s all over Facebook.
Work was okay actually i worked 8 to 2:20 (supposed to be 2) but you know how it goes, even when you think you’ll go home on time something happens. The other cashier was stuck on traffic. (just my luck)
A lot of old canadians buying their wife's flowers,chocolates and teddy bears. I swear senior citizen canadian couples are so cute! they are so together, like their marriages actually last until death does them apart. It kinda gives me hope. (unlike the picture bellow)

So true! (not for all men, or women as a matter of fact)

People loved my hair once again :p

 

 

Time to talk about the Boys, I’m actually debating on whether i should keep certain details to myself and i will since you never know who can read this. 

A little background on my dating, I’ve never really dated anyone older than me, actually out of like 14 boyfriends i’ve had (i didn’t take relationships seriously when i was younger and all of them happened when i was 15 and under, so go figure. Perhaps that means i’ve never really had a relationship.) only one  of all those “boyfriends” has been older. You might be thinking cougar much? no, actually just trying not to put myself into a situation, where i could potentially be pressured into doing something i’m not ready for.

So there’s Casey (names were changed of course, writing initials gets annoying) Casey was a guy who i had noticed at the gym before he is tall and muscular, funny thing is i ended up meeting him at this other dude’s house when we hung out. Then we became friends and he invited me to a couple of parties, i was crushing hard on this kid. I loved getting texts from him but i didn’t send him texts first because once i heard him say “Bitches love when you ignore them, they text you first” so i thought to myself oh really? good to know. Any who, one day Casey was drunk at a party and since i don’t drink, i was aware of everything going on. He started telling me about his ex and how she broke his heart, he was about to cry (I was freaking out, how do you console a man? that’s all i could think of) Then he wished death upon her, i immediately told him “don’t say that, don’t ever wish death upon anyone!” So one day i told his friend i liked him and he told me that he liked my other friend, i was furious. How could he flirt with me and then i find out he likes her, i gave up on that i stopped caring. I mean you cant force anyone to like you! Weeks after that his friends confront me and ask me if i like him, i refused to answer because i wasn’t sure anymore and i didn’t want to lead anyone on besides what made him change his mind? last time i checked he didn’t like me.  (Life works in mysterious ways seriously, what’s the lesson? don’t hold back your feelings, tell those who you care about how you feel, before they give up their feelings for you) As for me and Casey ? we haven’t talked in a while. I’ve thought about texting him, but i don’t wanna mislead him.

Then there’s Brian in the military. I used to LOVE talking to him 24/7 but then he got a girlfriend and didn’t tell me, i had to see it on Facebook and i had mixed feelings about that one. I knew that because of the distance we couldn’t really have anything, heck he asked me out like the first week we started talking (not really a good sign) It reminded me of me when i was younger and so eager to be in and out of relationships. I felt betrayed and jealous. Yes, i also felt so selfish because i didn’t accept a relationship with him, yet i didn’t want anyone else to have him. Then he started lying to me in order to get attention i’m assuming thats the reason. I remember when i was younger i used to do the same! Just proves no matter how old you are maturity doesn’t really come with age, It’s something you chose to be.

It got to a point where he was pretending to be suicidal, that really freaked me out. Death is just something you don’t play with, once again me when i was younger. Suicide is stupid, a selfish attention craving act, people who commit suicide are cowards! pull yourself together, face your problems, don’t hurt your loved ones and just know that no matter how tough you think you have there are others who have it worse. Brian was the guy who reminded me of Dear john, because we wrote letters back and forth while he was at AIT over the summer. It was really sweet, i felt like i was in a movie minus the heart break and the deployments. I would check the mail everyday and hope there was a letter waiting for me everyday and there was most days, i wrote back and told him about my boring days and even made fun of his with my sarcasm, it was nice while it lasted.  Oh did i mention i mailed him a birthday present as well? yeah i was that nice, still am. We keep in contact still, i don’t know if anything will ever go further but for now i’m happy with his friendship and i enjoy talking to him, i don’t have to hold back i can just be myself and know he wont judge me (or at least he wont tell me anything).

There’s also Ted whom i met at work. How i met him could have made a cute story to tell, if it hard worked out or if i had allowed it to i should say.

Ted Shops where i work and i remember noticing him this one time he came through my lane. I thought he was cute, so when he came through my line later on i was a bit shy, i couldn’t really make eye contact (Weird, i know!)

That date his bill was 70 something and he handed me 20’s, i assumed he gave me 80 (because thats what a normal person would do...) Then he goes you owe me 20 “no i don’t, you gave me 80” "No i think i gave you an extra 20" (uh why would he do that?) then i was like “dude if i’m short 20 ill make sure i hunt you down and make you pay” So i gave him his 20 back and he gave me his number just in case. I was so happy, weeeeee i had actually met someone (cute) new at work! So after i got off i jokingly said that i was short, then i said i was kidding. Blah blah blah... we set up a date and we went to watch little Fockers, he was a total gentleman. There was only a couple of problems 1 he is 23, i believe he just turned 24 2 days ago as a matter of fact (i did wish him a happy birthday) Thats like 5 years of age difference, i just couldn’t get over that. I always thought i knew what i wanted and that i wasn’t like those other girls older guys usually talked about, you know the ones that don’t know what they want. He seemed like he was ready to settle down and quite honestly i felt a little bit scared. Then i realized i acted just like the girls i didn’t want to be. I talk talk talk and want want want a lovely relationship but when i had the chance i kinda blew it and i say kinda because, when i was at the movies and Ted grabbed my hand there was only one person on my mind and it wasn’t him. So i felt really shitty and i felt like he didn’t deserve that. ( so the next day i cut off my communication with him, until when i wished him a happy birthday) He replied “Thank you sweetheart” Such a great guy! he held no remorse towards me, i wish him the best and hopefully he finds the girl of his dreams.

Saved the best for last, there’s “M” or Mike yup he was the one on my mind as Ted held my hand. I dont know what it is about Mike that makes him so amazing, maybe it’s his gorgeous dirty blonde hair, or his grayish,blueish,green eyes, how confident he is, how witty he is, how he knows all the right things to say. His train of thought really intrigues me, he’s so different and independent, i wish i was more like him, definitely the most interesting guy i’ve ever met (not even exaggerating)  He makes me feel simply perfect and i love that no matter how I’m feeling, a text from him can instantly change my mood for the better. He’s the perfect combination of “passion” and “sweetness” we are very alike in some ways and not others but thats okay, because it would probably be boring if i didn’t have someone to introduce me to new things. Sometimes his mental abilities intimidate me, but thats a good thing because i feel like even though he doesn’t know it, he makes me better, like i get to learn when i talk to him from time to time. I wish everything was perfect but it isn’t. Sometimes i wish i could talk to him more often, but like i’ve told him before i don’t want to suffocate him. If anything is meant to be it will happen and i cant really force destiny nor can i force him to feel the way i feel. How do i feel? Mhmm perhaps i really like him, like really, really like him and id love to build something with him, but once again there’s distance and not knowing whether he likes me or not Also did i mention he’s worse with feelings than me, as in he doesn’t fall in love or anything yeah kind of a bummer (that explains the no strings attached poster, when i was watching that movie the girl character really reminded me of him; I hope he ends up like she did) (The going the distance poster because it was a cute movie which reminds me of him, just because id be willing to go the distance)

So what have we learned from this blog? That i’m alone on valentine’s day because i messed things up with Ted and Casey. The 2 guys that actually live near me and were sweet and that no matter how much i blame myself for being alone, it’s not really my fault. I rather be alone than hurt someone else’s feelings, for the sake of one stupid valentine (I wish i was more selfish and thats the bitter valentineless monster speaking)
Just a song thats been on my mind for no particular reason other than i heard it while working out and i’m loving the lyrics.

Blue, Blues. I just realized i talked about 2 blues on this blog.

You know how after a nap your supposed to feel AMAZING? Ugh that's not the case with me. I've slept for like 4 hours and now I feel crappy. Then I come to the realization that tomorrow is valentines day and i most likely have the blue’s.
Even though my opportunity to join the military is far away, I thought i’d start training way ahead, so when the time does come i am more than ready!
Tomorrow ill start the workout on this site
"http://www.military.com/military-fitness/air-force-basic-training/air-force-pre-boot-camp-workout”
I wanna cross into the blue if you didn’t already figure that one out.
I ran my mile in 9 mins and 30 secs, i know its a terrible time! i used to be able to run it in 7 mins and 50 secs. Im hoping this workout plan will get me back to that time and perhaps shed time off my mile, but ultimately its up to me and how hard i push myself.
Maybe i should watch what i eat, that could be helpful. Honestly i cant really stick to a diet, in the end i usually say fuckit, i’m skinny i don’t need it (which is true) But i eat a LOT of junk food.

I saw this card at a shop and i thought it was interesting, so i took a picture of it to share.
Then i was listening to this amazing song and on the comments i found the following quote or whatever i can be called.

"The Script taught me how to move on.

Greenday taught me that government's gonna fail someday.

Bruno Mars taught me to do anything for that one person I love

Eminem taught me that life is hard but you can make it through

Travis taught me to be generous

Taylor Swift taught me not every guy is going to treat me right

30 Seconds to Mars taught me to speak whats on my mind

Michael Jackson taught me to always love the people around me

Music taught me to live”

It’s kinda amazing how people come up with these clever ways of putting things together.                       I could go on my valentines day rant today but i figured id wait until tomorrow, after all it will be valentines day tomorrow. Then i can pour all my little expectations and reasons why im the one who blew it, Yeah that sounds about right.


Oh and this is pretty cute too.




Geez i’ve edited this blog about 4 times now after posting it.
I just got a text message from “M” (that’s what ill refer to him as tomorrow, when i explain the situation or situations) Text messages from him make me really happy, no matter what they say. (it sucks because i don’t want to get hurt, yet i love the feeling of happy)




Xoxo Julieth

Intense -_-

Let me just say work wasn’t as bad today, people loved my hair and old guys kept on winking at me (lovely! not really lol) It went relatively fast, as fast as a 12 to 6 shift can go.

 

Came home after work and waited for my friend to come over so we could go out to eat. Went to a yummy buffet and ate like there’s no tomorrow. (I did come home and worked out for 30 mins, 200 cals eh not so bad)
Came home again, watched "its a Boy girl thing” (eh i’m not even sure if thats the name of the movie, but it was super cute) Damn you girl hormones! and all the mushy stuff romance movies make me feel.
Then the rage, my brother wouldn’t put "dear john" on he was being a little dummy. So he said the F word to me (several time’s and that just sets me off) Then he said "bring it on bitch” OHMYGOD he might as well have pulled my leg hairs, one by one with a tweezer.
We started fighting, man its been a while since i’ve fought him. He put me on a head lock and he was chocking me (he’s gotten so strong! and to my defense, i would feel like shit if i actually hit him) My friends brother was holding him back, while i instigated the fight to go on further on, kinda like on those reality tv shows.
Then my mom finally came into the room and took the bull away. He’s currently sleeping in the other room, while i’m here watching yet another movie with my sister (whom i don’t normally get along with)
I guess thats all for today (Ps sorry this blog had sooo many pictures.)

Xoxo Julieth

More life lesson’s yay!

I’ve had a shitty couple of days, thanks to work. I’ve come to realize people are really fucked up in the head and that good people ? well there’s only a few of them, so here’s 2 instances that ruined my days.

Yesterday i’m working being all happy (not really, just waiting for the hours to pass by but in a neutral mood) I tell a couple of ladies that the shrimp they got was not the buy one get one free, you know in case they didn’t notice and the lady goes "oh ill go get the other one". So i politely ask "can you please take this one back?” (since you know, she’s going to be opening the same fridge and this is perishable.) This bitch says “No you can take it back yourself” okay (I’ve never had anyone say that to me NEVER!) So i keep scanning her shit (excuse my obscene language, but i need to let this all out) and i just throw everything into the bags without organizing it (I bag really nicely, when i’m in a good mood) Then she comes back and starts telling my supervisor, i’m terrible at costumer service blah blah. I ignored her (Bitch i just saved you 14 dollars, if it wasn’t for me you would have went home and had to come back!) As if it wasn’t enough she came back for round 2! That girl didn’t give me my seasoning and she charged me for it, i couldn’t keep quiet anymore “It was in your first transaction, it should be in those bags” (Im 100% sure of this because her bags were really stuffed and she couldn’t possibly be missing only the seasoning) Then she says "so your saying i’m stupid” (Yeah pretty much. i wish i could have said that) Bitch goes “Don’t talk to me anymore” (Alright ill remember your face so the next time i see you, i don’t even bother looking at the screen to make sure everything is right) Oh yeah and she tries to pull the racist card “Oh if i was white or hispanic, she would have treated me differently” (Your damn right i would have, cause a normal person wouldn’t have a problem putting the shrimp back! its not like she was going out of her way)

Today, this guy comes through my lane and he leaves the stuff in the basket "uh can you take that out of the basket” (wtf is wrong with people, is it too hard to get your shit out of the red basket really? Im scanning your shit, yeah i know its my job. Im bagging your shit and you expect me to take it out of the basket too? RIDICULOUS! ) "i’m not putting my stuff out its wet clean that up!” cleaned it up. Then he came back you charged me too much for the pears “Go to the service desk, so they can give you your money back” “No i’m not going anywhere you messed up your going to fix it now!” “Let me finish here and ill go check it out” “NO! your going to do it right now, they have to wait.” (I wanted to punch this little asshole in the face so bad! mother effer, never have i been so disrespected) Either way he had to go to the desk.

It’s people like this that make me abhor my job, i cant wait to be done with this petty shit (no offense to anyone, how can people make a living out of being a cashier for the rest of their lives, this is something temporary hopefully. Im grateful for my job but I HATE IT!) sigh can a year just go by so i can join the military and do something greater than this -_-

On another note, I just finished watching "the human centipede” it can be described in 1 word “DISTURBING” The world is full of sick people. I will be even more careful about who i trust and all of that good stuff.

Xoxo Julieth.

Blah, blah

Obsessed is just a word the lazy use to describe the dedicated." -Anonymous

Man i love that quote it fits me perfectly, well sorta at least. 

Yesterday i spent my whole day off reading this blog "http://wannabesoldier83.blogspot.com“ It’s crazy once i find these blogs i spend hours reading them, time just seems to fly. The point is that girls story was really inspirational i envy her determination and physical drive to get in shape; So after reading her whole blog, I’m trying to push myself hard when i’m working out. Grr its just so boring to have no competition, I’m one hell of a competitor, I love the trill of being first, working my butt off to catch up if I’m falling behind and who doesn’t love winning after putting up a good fight!

So one of the things i got from the girls blog was to set goals and post them, so i feel more accountable to deliver results or whatever. 

These are pictures taken January 24th 2011 ( I look miserable i know, hopefully no one i know comes upon these :p )

This is me today as in February 8th 2011 (The pictures are a bit blurry, my 11 year old brother + my blackberry camera = not the best pictures)

Today i went to pick up my paycheck at work and saw the schedule for this week then next to my name there was an L.L highlighted in blue, It turns out it means Lovers Lane, which ultimately means i have to dress up valentine ISHH looking on saturday and on monday (valentines day!) I cant wait! i wanna be all pretty and such red shirt, red bow on my head and maybe just maybe ill give the red lipgloss a try (highly doubtful though, i think i look super weird with it on) My goal for those two days is to actually smile and not let people get to my (sigh, we’ll see how that goes).

I also went to the police explorers thing, i got there and i felt so intimidated. I recognized this girl that went to my high school so i waived at her and they got smoked by the cop, i felt so bad!

They took us to a classroom and they talked police code and all that, i was lost of course being my first day -_- after all that classroom. They made me introduce myself in front of the class (dammit i really hate public speaking, i turned bright red and answered the questions as quick and vaguely, but this one girl just kept on asking more and more. After about an hour, the guy (cop) goes okay lets go do PT. So i go to the car and change into shorts, then this one cop says HEY! did you just change in the car? me: yeah?

then he commands this explorer to talk to me. So the explorer goes "I’m going to pretend I’m talking to you blah blah" and i innocently ask "i wasn’t supposed to do that?" then he tells me "no its unprofessional" LOVELY!

Then the cop tells us "oh we aren’t doing PT today, i was just testing if you guys had your clothing” boy was i pissed, i didn’t work out earlier because i thought id work out there. So i had to work out at home BORING! but hey you gotta do what you gotta do.

Anyway off to bed, gotta be up at 6 and work 7 to 4 -_- Oh joy!

This time I’m leaving for real, A little video of me running. It made me laugh while i was recording it and watching it, so i thought id share.

xoxo Julieth.

Just a summary of what its been like

This is probably going to be all over the place, ill write things down as i remember them in no particular order.
Lets see the other day i took my little brother and sister out to dinner and then they let me in on this secret, my brother cut class that day, his reason “It was reading class, I didn’t feel like reading” then he says “I walked into the library, told the teacher i was there and left” WHAT a little badass i was thinking, (mind you he’s only a 6th grader) in my days i would have never even thought about doing that! Hopefully its a once in a blue moon kind of thing, the only time i ever cut class was in 8th grade and it was peer counseling so that doesn’t really count.
2 weeks ago i finally bought myself a treadmill to get in shape.
This is my little baby

I’ve been burning about 250 calories daily running/walking depending on my mood and how tired i am.
I also do 50 flutter kicks,30 sit ups,30 push ups, play with the 2 pound weights, 20 squats and 10 oblique workouts to each side.
2 weeks ago my waist measured 67cm and my love handles measured 83cm.
Today they measure 66 and 82, not much of a difference but i’ll take it since i just wanna look tighter and toned, not bony.
About 2 days ago this dude came through my line to check out his groceries and when he left i saw him out the window taking pictures (i was flipping out because i was talking to my coworker while i scanned his stuff) Yesterday he came back and went through self checkout, when he left i could see him staring at me as he was walking out. There are some weird people out there seriously! I’m sorta trying to look like i’m enjoying my job, instead of looking so serious all the time but what can i say when i’m doing something, i’m focused on what i’m doing. Besides most of the cashiers are slow as hell and i’m there to get the lines moving as fast as i can not to have a full blown conversation with the costumers. Ps have i ever mentioned how much i abhor people who think they are too good to help a cashier bag their own stuff, its ridiculous the things i’ve heard “So i’m getting paid commission right?” ”Your going to pay me out of your paycheck?”
On the other hand there’s the job i call my “princess job” because that was my first gig i was princess Belle

I’m not a princess all the time though, i’m mickey, minnie, elmo, cookie monster,yo gabbagabba, a cow, woody, a vegas girl. I could go on but you get the point.
I’ve come to realize how much i love this job, seriously regardless of how hot the costumes are when i’m in them. Nothing is better than seeing a kid smile and knowing they have the illusion of you being real,it makes me melt. When the kids say i love you spongebob, i watch you on tv all the time and you can see the innocence in their eyes its ADORABLE!
My favorite part of the show is this song, thats my jam! No matter which character i am I LIKE TO MOVE IT MOVE IT!


Xoxo Julieth

After thoughts #2

It’s been almost a week since i made my mistake.
I’m starting to think of it as a lesson, a VERY expensive lesson. I had been really naive about the dangers of the internet, i mean it seems like i have heard it all, but this was really eye opening. Yesterday i dedicated my day off to somewhat relaxing and i got the chance to watch that life time movie based on true events “The craigslist killer” Then it hit me not everyone is who they seem and thats the lesson my mom was trying to teach me, trust none but yourself. People have a way of twisting things to their advantage thinking it will benefit them forever but thats not the case.
The reality of the matter is until now, i had been so sheltered, thinking everyone is honest and works hard for their money which is obviously not the case now a days. Everyone is looking for the easy way to make money regardless of who they hurt in their selfish hustle. Welcome to adulthood! enjoy the ride while it lasts.
Another thing is i don't understand is why so many people have been scammed and they haven't been able to find this group of scumbags or scumbag. Perhaps not being able to isn't the issue its a want kind of thing.
I am so upset that Western union refuses to disclose the exact location of where the money I sent was picked up, all they said was "it was picked up in St louis, Mo” keep in mind it took me 3 days and about 30 phone calls to get this information out of them. No kidding! no wonder no one has been able to get their money back! Western union is obviously not helping, maybe because this is within their employees, who else could know how much it takes to get the desired information and the truth is people are not perseverant enough to keep trying heck i feel like giving up, i feel so hopeless!
To make matters worse the lady i spoke to on the phone says “Western union is to send money to family and friends” OH REALLY! then why cant you disclose the exact location of the pickup, i mean if its a service for family and friends wouldn't we know where they live? since you do have to provide an address to send the money to.
No one is in danger for getting the location of a pick up, heck i wouldn't care about where the money was picked up if i hadn’t been scammed! but Western union sure isn't helping.