Here’s and exert from what i wrote a while ago on another blog:
"Teenagers are so weird I don’t understand why I like this kid so much maybe it’s the thrill of the chase? A month ago he asked me out and I was like your kidding? then he said he was and then I didn’t talk to him for like 2 weeks, but that day he told me sometimes he sees me as more than a friend others he doesn’t, ugh so many mixed signals I don’t even know what to think, when we were driving to his house so he could change and go to the movies he like put his hand on mine at the stop light ahhh also sometimes when I feel jealous he hugs me like to comfort me or I don’t know, like today I was sitting in his kitchen by myself and he came in and was like: what are you doing alone, im like reading then he just hugs me (confused face) I need a psychologist with this kid lol. Other than that we went to watch jackass it was very jackassish good if your into hitting and gross stuff lol i didn’t realize how much fun it is to hang out with guys, like it was me and 4 guys, guys are just so carefree and funny to watch in their environment, they tell me everything not going to lie it feels good to find out what the likes and dislikes of guys actually are. like they would openly take a girl who doesnt respect herself, but that doesnt mean they respect her and boy do they trash talk Sluts :o. So one of the guys i was hanging out with at the movies is having a party on saturday im so excited idk what to wear. like its funny how when i was in high school i didnt ever go to a party, and now that ive graduated ill get to experience what a high school party is like :p probably a bunch of drunk teens doing things they are not supposed to -__- im really hoping i dont regret going, since i dont drink,smoke or have sex so i might be putting myself in a potentially awkward situation, im kinda testing my will power lets see if i keep my straight edgeness under pressure. “
I figured id write my analysis of what i wrote months ago in Blue lets see, I cant believe how happy i was when i was writing that stuff, well partly happy mostly confused and hopeful but screw that! I did end up going to that party and you’ll read about it bellow.
"For those who have read my blogs omg omg Dan kissed me tonight im speechless still im in shock like i dont even know what to do with myself right now ahhhhh i cant type i have that feeling in my stomach so ill tell you guys about it tomorrow omggggggg
also my hair is pretty right now and my friend is taking me surfing in the morning(my hair will get messed up)
goodnight you guys ahhh <3
ps ive waited for his moment for about a year now, so good things def come to those who wait.”
Sorry the colors and the sizes are messed up, i didn’t want to tamper with the size’s and such. I think they add an effect and allow you to infer how i was feeling. I did go surfing the next day, my hair did get messed up and the waves were so big i couldn’t even ride one heck my arms were hurting so bad paddling out i went back to the shore (Ps sharks were on my mind the whole time, i had to get out!)
"Unfortunately the high off the kiss has worn off, after having a talk with my bff ive come to the realization that i might have messed up aghh damm it why did i let him kiss me :’( what if he just says he was drunk and it was a mistake or something im kinda depressed now...
please someone give me advice!!!! ahhh”
Oh yeah big mistake!
"I'm on my phone as a type this I usually hate typing long things on my phone but at this point I will do anything to forget what's on my mind right now. So I said I would blog on last nights details so here it goes... Hen was being a dick as usual before I got to the party because I rejected him again, he thinks because he keeps on trying that I'm going to change my mind -__- despite that he knows how I feel about Dan. So after I rejected him he txt me saying idk what ur going to do at the party then! Obviously it was my first party and I didn't know anyone but the birthday boy, hen and dan. So I was flipping out like I thought about not going but then I thought to myself and I was like are you stupid!? Go and be friendly and meet new people! So when I got there I called hen so he could walk in with me he came out but when we walked in he like walked ahead and really fast so in my head I'm just thinking this lil bitch! Then he tells dan I'm there and dan says hey and then goes back to his beerpong or w/e then I was just stood alone for like 2 seconds and this dude came out of nowhere and asked if I was single so I was like yes and then he gave me his number scooooore! Obviously hen saw this and told dan then they mocked me about it, then another dude who was collecting the money for the beer pong introduced himself. Then henry being the lil bitch he is turns his back on my and pretends he doesn't know me, so this dude on crutches goes woah there's some tension there and I was like nah he's just being a dick. So I make friends with him his name is joey so we went to sit down cause he was tired and we talked for a while til dan came and tried to hug me, he was drunk so I was like ur not driving so give me ur keys. Then he goes back to some more beer pong. Joey was with me for a while now, thank godness other wise I would have been standing around like hen looking like an idiot with his arms crossed karma is a bitch and I'm glad she made her appearance last night. Blah blah more talking with joey then comes dan out of nowhere hugging me and kissing my arms, my back, my neck, my cheek all over me like he's my boyfriend or something so he scares the guys away. then when I was sitting on his lap I was like this makes me look bad and he goes don't worry about it I've told them that I've been talking to you for 4 months now, this whole time he's trying to kiss me on the lips but I kept on turning away cause hen and joey were right there watching. Then joey asked me for a ride home so I said yes and hen told dan or whatever then it was time to go and they were sleeping over the bday boys house so then hen walked me to my car with joey and I was like oh tell dan thanks for saying bye and then when I was about to turn at the corner hen calls and says that dan wants to say bye so I was like ill drop joey off and come back. When I came back they hug me and dan kisses me on the lips like 3 times. Hen says aw cute I'm jealous and I go home happy as can be. This morning I wake up at 6 to go surfing mind you I went to bed at 4 feeling regretful so I'm exhausted then I get a text from dan that says "Heard i kissed u n was all over u last night, sorry about that i didnt mean too i was drunk it was my fault i shouldnt have done that" ouch ouch ouch I was just falling asleep (nap) so I wake up and I'm in the I knew this would happen mood I'm so sad right now I replied with "k" like what else am I supposed to say :'( I wanna cry, but then I don’t. I feel like an idiot.
Wow the way i described those events made me sound so bad! when Daniel was kissing all upon me it wasn’t anything sexual or anything it was just little pop kisses. I think i did cry for a little while, but then i got over it. I don’t remember how, i believe it was when i met casey but whatever. I think Daniel, Henry and I hung out after the kiss incident like nothing ever happened. Henry being the scumbag he is tried to mock the kiss thing and torment me, but i didn’t care, it was a mistake, i enjoyed the moment and i knew that i shouldn’t have done it. (well yes and no, i doubted myself)
Boy did i look happy back in the day, Yeah that’s Daniel and here’s Henry aka my worst nightmare. I wouldn’t post all of those pictures and blog exerts if there wasn’t a point. Basically Henry hit my 11 year old brother, my mom forbid him from coming over. The girl in the picture with me (daniel’s ex) told Henry’s and Daniels sensei about the incidents, The sensei beat the shit out of Henry along with all the others in karate. Henry and Daniel hate me (I personally don’t give a shit) Until these 2 asshole’s started spreading rumors about the stuff i would “do” with them, Lovely! thats what i get for hanging out with boys who are still in high school. Oh so immature Dammit, Grow the fuck up and stop spreading shit (as if they were here sigh) I work so hard to keep a clean image (I lie, i didn’t work hard because i don’t do anything, i’m just good) Now the people at the dojo think i’m some kind of slut, not like it matters because 1 its not the truth and 2 ill never meet them or anything like that but it still hurts a lil. I would have expected that from Henry, since you know when you reject people they tend to be bitter, but hey Daniel rejected me and i didn’t go around spreading crap about him, all i said was i only liked him for his muscles and i didn’t know what i saw in him, which is the truth and i only told a close girlfriend.
(I guess i couldn’t tame the immaturity in me, but at least i didn’t let it go wild) Daniel spreading crap shocked me. Another reason why i was into Daniel was how much of a gentleman he was, i thought he was pretty mature for his age and such. He would drive me home from his house, wait until i was safe inside the house and shit. It’s not much but it’s the little things that matter the most (At least to me) I swear if i ever see these 2 again i’m going to give them a piece of my mind and perhaps a slap in the face. (I always kinda wanted to do that, but not really i hate hurting people physically and emotionally) Now a song to fully close this chapter ta da da da da who’s better than Taylor Swift to express girls feelings all over the world yay!Xoxo Julieth.
Hi there, It was real interesting what you wrote about yourself, pretty cool I have to say. I really really would like to meet you or get to know you better. We have a lot in common. Don't get me wrong,, but you're very pretty and sounded pretty cool on your blog. :)
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