Swing,swing, swing from the tangles of My heart is crushed by a former love. Can you help me find a way To carry on again

Fuck yeah for the first blog of the new year! Happy new year to whoever reads this, whenever you read it. I hope your year as prosperous as i wish mine to be.


Forever ago i went on a “blind outing” and i don’t mean completely blind; its blind because i didn’t skype the guy before. Luckily he wasn’t some 40 yr old.
We went out to eat ice cream and i kicked this guys ass at eating this giant sundae. My ice cream sundae was Pina colada and bubble gum with strawberry as a toping can you say delicious? because i can. Oh and because i have no shame i stuffed the 30 or whatever balls of gum my ice cream had, until my cheeks looked like a hamsters when they eat, yup i looked like the hamster in that picture. I got my braces taken off that day so i went all out. I like the guy as a friend, nothing more. He showed me a picture of JT Austin and Kyle Massey apparently they smoke weed... Noooooo completely ruined his character on wizzards of wavely place for me, i cant look at him without thinking you little ugh! He said Selena was a prude bitch? My applause goes to Selena Gomez for truly being a good girl and since when does being prude make you a bitch? FU JT, theres nothing wrong with being prude!


On the other hand there was this other kid i went out with my bff and his bff, they were cool guys to hang out with definitely funny. That went to shit and i’m too nice to blog about the fuckedupness of the whole thing. I will say a couple of things though. One he literally grabbed my face, kissed me and then he called me and told me he was bisexual. Mindfucked doesn’t even begin to describe how i felt. Two after i accept all his fucked up past, key word past. HE doesn’t text me again, might have something to do with me going off because he cancelled plans last minute, after i had driven halfway. If theres one thing that fucks me up is not getting things my way or most importantly WASTING gas...


So remember how i completely bashed this frozen yogurt place i had in New York? PinkBerry because i paid so much money for my cup?
I was at work on Thursday and i was arguing with a guy about how much they sucked and how Yogurtland was better... The guy was the owner... So after bashing his company, i asked for a job LMFAO I have no shame! He said i could put him as a reference and so the next day i was asking for my job. The following day i got it. I start on tuesday. Check me out Julieth 3 jobs work hard!


So i am extremely thankful for how my year has started off. 
Even though i thought it was going to go to shit because my schedule was changed and i was supposed to work jan 1st. I wasn’t notified of this change and i found out an hour later after my shift started FUCK that day was time and a half pay! I came in an hour late and made my $$$ hell yeah and even thought i was only scheduled for 2 days this week (sunday and thursday) I ended up working (sunday,monday,wednesday,thursday,friday and saturday) is it 2 weeks yet? i wanna see my paycheck with my 7 hours of overtime please.


My goal is to pay off my car by my 1 year anniversary with the thing, April 5th. 6000 to go, 3000 in the bank but i ain’t emptying my bank account lol






Xoxo Julieth

I’ll do anything for...

Those second row tickets for Coldplay! every time i hear some of their music it makes me wanna close my eyes and drift into the melody of the instruments.


Anyway the best radio station ever 97.9 WRMF has been giving away tickets for the past 4 days, on the 1st day it was 4th row, 2nd 3rd row and 3rd 2nd row. I woke up at 612 am on the 2nd day and attempted to win, but i had to work that day and the winners picture was AMAZING!  (you gotta get the most likes on your picture by 10 am in order to win) fine whatever ill try again tomorrow and ill make sure i wake up earlier...
There i was thursday december 15 up at 5 am when i went to bed at 2am, there was no way i was going to lose this time and i was going to do whatever it took.
Oh first of all this damn contest didn’t start until 7 am (the day before it started at 530ish so i figured it would be the same, not too happy about being up 2 hours earlier)
I got this genius idea of going on stickam (some sort of webcam site, i had the account from when i was like 15) and so i tried to go on the different chat rooms and ask people to please like my picture, that shit did not work! Then i went “LIVE” which means i go on cam and whoever wants to join my chat room can, i said i would do ANYTHING if i won this contest... Well actually i kinda said i would Flash people (which i’ve never done) I guess posting a link so much is against the rules, so i got banned from the site (stickam) the guys started commenting on the radio stations Facebook (on my contest entry picture) saying thats not her! unlike the picture! she lied!
Like an hour into the contest my friend tells me dude it says Okcupid on your picture... Fuck my life i cant delete it now? i already have like 50 likes... He’s like oh nobody will notice... sure enough this ugly mother fucking little punk looking bitch comments saying “the picture is from okcupid lol ” Oh thanks asshole you had the need to point that out? and there you have it
The ugly bitch with the glasses is well you know...
The blackguy is the idiot who said i would do those things, which is ridiculously stupid because well my “bra” was my victoria secret bathing suit top and anyone with a brain knows most of their swim wear looks like a bra. Show my arse? by which he meant ass, yeah i gave a side view of my ass i’m my pajamas (oh i’m quite the pornstar or whore now, so start giving up the ca$h) Doing illegal things now Danielle, you stupid sore loser! She wasn’t even close to winning. My biggest competition was the picture of the guy playing the guitar, not your ugly ass and your cute dog honey and guess what bitch ill be sitting on 2nd row watching Coldplay do their thing ;)
Ugh theres the picture with the stupid okcupid logo.
I checked my blogger and a shitload of people had googled me, like 70 new views on my blog. Somebody had actually searched Julieth (insert last name here) okcupid.
Thats when i lost it i figured out a way to make my blogger private, disabled my facebook and now here i am suffering from withdrawal. Im so embarrassed about the okcupid thing its not even funny :/
Why do people have to make such a big deal out of online dating, shit some of us are just not social or good at meeting people in person is that a crime? The whole stickam thing is pretty embarrassing too everyone probably thinks i’m a whore now -_- a whore who’s never sucked a dick and has had one sexual partner 1 time! oh yeah i’m quite the slut now.
So im thinking ill keep my Facebook disabled until the new year and then clean up my friends list, i have 800 and something friends and only 50 of them liked my picture that fucking says something. Some people are USELESS. Ill try to use my free time wisely like for example study for the asvab, dammit a good score isn’t going to magically fall into my hands.
Im going to make my blog public again because you know what I FUCKING HAVE AN ONLINE DATING PROFILE SO WHAT? THAT MAKES ME A LOSER, LONER AND LAME. I no longer care whether people know this or not, i’ve made some awesome friends on that site and i have no regrets about that.
No for some crazy shit today or technically yesterday.
I took care of this old lady, she looked 80 something. She was telling me she worked at walmart and that her husband was at the hospital. So i figured aw she works to keep busy and i definitely didn’t think anything major was wrong with her husband. Out of nowhere she says something along the lines of "i don’t wanna be negative but if he doesn’t make it am i going to be stuck with a 2 year contract?” i said no as long as your within the 30 days, then i said i hope he makes it! she then tells me "i hope so too because i dont know how ill be able to live without him” So i asked whats wrong with him? “he has leukemia and he’s had chemo 7 times now” i’m staring into her eyes they are getting all watery and i’m like your going to make me cry! Sure enough no matter how hard i tried to contain myself, the tears just poured out like waterfalls. I had no control over my emotions and my speech was blurred. I couldn’t wait to be done with her activation because i couldn’t stop crying and my voice kept breaking, i just wanted the sad though to go away. I went to the bathroom after i was done and washed my face, drank some water; yet when i got back to my department, i was shivering, my heart was beating really fast and my speech wasn’t fully recovered. I couldn’t believe i had actually broken down like that, but hey i have feelings...

Xoxo Julieth

a lot of random shit

Awesome Butt sweatpants? damn right! i thought it was funny it said that on the tag, my butt does look awesome but its not all thanks to the sweatpants... I got it from my momma :P

On my way to work on thursday, 61 degrees. Are you kidding this is South Florida! not the north pole. I’ve never used the heater in my car, so saying i pressed every button is an under statement. The air was coming out cold and i was dying! maybe because i had recently turned the car on... after that it was warm and toasty yum yum yum :) around 80 degrees is my favorite type of weather. 

I was trying to sell my little sister my vs pink cheetah bra for 20 when i paid almost 40 for it but since she’s significantly larger than me (and i don’t mean in the boobwise) The bra was really tight on her, so i gave her all my older bra’s. I’m an A cup so i typically wear push ups and my mom goes “ what does an 11 year old need a bra for? i didn’t have any boobs when i was 11! ” Then my sister goes "mom thats you! i don’t care about you, I need bra’s to feel womanly!” I almost died laughing womanly? at 11 oh god poor mom when this girl is actually is a teenager, luckily if all goes as planned ill be out of the house then.

Sleep deprived my mom wakes me up at 1130 am and takes me to get my Colombian ID (a requirement to get into the country for me when i go visit) That would be me without make up on...











Then theres me with make up on. Make up does miracles no lie.













Then theres me in 1999, that was my ID. Pictures tell stories and that hair cut was thanks to my genius idea of giving myself a haircut, while my mom was in another room. You see my grandma had a hair salon and i just happened to stumble upon the scissors, so i cut my hair. I didn’t cut it that short though, that was after my grandma finally managed to even it out.
I was 7 years old, yet i still remember what my punishment was going to be. When i got caught my mom went crazy! she grabbed that thing that gives boys buzz cuts and chased after me with it turned on and ready to make me bald! i still remember hiding behind my grandma’s legs. Oh yeah and thats probably what i would look like if i chose to go navy. Scary! I look terrible like Christopher Colombus which was what my family used to joke -_-

 This is the picture i’m going to have on my new ID the one i get to keep for life, as in even if i’m 80 that will be my picture! It’s crazy, i wonder why we dont change ID’s as often as americans do. Oh well, forever young.

The guy giving it to me was like what are you here for? Uh my ID? Oh really i thought you were 14?
Mhm thanks your not the first one, nor will you be the last. Once again forever young.

Eating fried fish like a boss! My eyes are bigger than my stomach, i ended up eating only one fish.

Thats the go army shirt i got at the nascar races, it has cool little airborne soldiers jumping out.

Saving the best for last the treat to myself, yummy frozen yogurt. Theres another store opening tomorrow so after work ill be there to claim my free cup of froyo :D muahaha! Monday ill start a diet high in protein and start my bootleg p90x that i got from BestBuy “get ripped in 90 days! as seen on TV”  Im still trying to figure out how ill be able to eat broccoli, asparagus and those green beans without dipping them in a shitload of garlic butter but  ill take the days as they come and ofcourse i’m hoping to see results within a month. Since i’m already thin, i only put on oh i don’t know 10 pounds 122 the highest i’ve ever been. If i ever hit 130 i think i will cry, unless i have muscles of steel.

Xoxo Julieth

I’ve fallen in love...

With a song obviously


It kinda sucks nothing interesting has happened to me lately, other than meeting Travie from gym class heroes at work obviously. Dude smelled like smoke but he was really nice, nice enough to take a picture with me and another kid at least.

  Completed the NASCAR event without a glitch; Tried on some army gear and damn i have respect for all the guys who wear this on a daily basis shits heavy as fuck. Wrote a letter to a deployed soldier, its incredible how the little things can make a difference in peoples lifes.Worked at a glamour party doing little girls make up and nails; talk about a dream come true. I always wanted my real life dolls and i love being looked up to how can you not love me in this dress.Im like a little girl, in a little girls body with a big girls age (19) yeah i’m getting pretty damn old! Feather hair extensions, sparkly pink dresses, long princess hair, sparkly make up and cheetah sparkly nails (yup i love sparkles, if you couldn’t already tell.) I clearly don’t want to grow up, i do work like a slave sorta so that makes me kinda grown up right?

 

I saw a dude from my online dating profile (http://www.okcupid.com/profile)in person without meaning to. He was at the gaming department as i was trading in my brothers xbox. Poor guy was so puzzled or at least he looked puzzled. Kept tilting his head and staring hard, with the "i know you but i’m not quite sure look” if he knew who i was he was probably thinking this bitch never messaged me back. Now he was the stereotype of someone with an online dating profile, awkward as hell! like i’m awkwardish but this boy took it to a whole new level.
Oh and how could i forget to talk about my black friday nightmare. Finding a parking spot at work was nearly impossible, there was a huge line of people waiting to get in and  all around the store was crowded. $199.99 Tv is kind of a big deal!
I didn’t sleep for more than 24 hours, i went into work at 1 am  and was supposed to leave at 1 pm the next day. My feet were killing me by 10 am i was about to start crying from how much pain i was in.
Tried to play MW3 that game is really hard how do boys and gamer girls do it? Some asshole said i should go back to the kitchen... whats up with guys and the kitchen really? This other guy stood up for me and everyone assumed he was my boyfriend, i just listened because guys are kinda funny when they argue; “dude i’m gonna kick your ass... i’m bigger than you...no your not pussy... look me up on facebook..i wish you would come here”

Xoxo Julieth

a short little update...

Now i’m truly starting to believe certain people come into your life to help you get over certain things and so you can feed off the confidence they boost you with...

...Mr enchanted who? onto the next one onto the next one (i always wanted to say that) His friend did text me again and i did tell him what happened between me and him... He said they were bestfriends (which i didn’t know and what kind of bestfriend does that shit) Ah feels good to have no secrets.

The gutsy guy whom i lost my virginity to came into town. He didn’t come see his peoples at work, not that i was expecting him to but he did ask when i worked so...

At one point he asked me if i could give him a ride to the airport, i worked so no ride...

I think 2 days before he was going to leave he texted me saying “Goldie come kick it at the beach” oh sure let me just get in the car, drive there so you can try another last minute move on me and then leave me like im a hooker or whatever. Needless to say i didn’t text him back and i felt like i finally had the power. So fuck you biatchh, karma is a beautiful bitch.

What else is new since i last posted? I went to NASCAR friday and i’m going tomorrow as well to work doing air brush tattoo’s. As i stepped into the place all i could think of was final destination 4 i think it was but it looked really cool, the Airforce base down here is by there (because its the middle of nowhere) and the planes were so LOUD! at one point i got scared haha 

They had an army station and this douche bag tried to convince me the army was better than the airforce... No dude don’t try to recruit me into the army i’ve been there done that if it comes down to it ill go army but AF is still what i want.

LMAO^

Well that lasted more than kim kardashians marriage... or not :/

Either i am over reacting or i’m pretty much romance cursed.

I look forward to today(saturday) ALL FUCKING WEEK! because i was supposed to go out with "Mr. Enchanted", i confirmed with him the night before and set a time to pick him up (3 pm). Woke up at 9, cleaned the shit out of my car like spotless clean; came into the house to find out he texted me saying he “got called into work” i put a sad face and he didn’t text back. So at around 4 i texted him asking him if he was off yet... "Oh i get off at 6 p.m tomorrow” (split that into 3 to 4 texts because all he textes me are one word answers) Reschedule? his answer was “possibly” what do you mean? “idk possibly” ok... 

Waited until my Bestfriend came over and read the texting history between us and deleted it, along with his number (because thats what angry me does).

I also feel really guilty about the other guy, his friend whom i was supposed to meet in the first place. The tough front is obviously not working out...

I texted his friend, despite blowing off meeting me or getting cold feet whatever it was. He actually textes me or did until i asked him to call me so i could talk to him about something important ( i was about to confess hooking up with his friend) but he didn’t reply or call so that goes to shit.

I also was texting the wrong guy yesterday who happened to have the same name as "Mr enchanted" on my phone (i didn’t pay attention to the last name) made a date with him kinda, because i thought he was somebody else and fucked shit up with him, he asked me to delete his number off my phone. 

So thats me FUCKING SHIT UP left and right!
So who’s next?

Ill just go cry myself to sleep no biggie, thats all i wanna do right now... I haven’t cried since i lost my virginity so i’m due for a good cry.

I was enchanted to meet you

Im jamming to my “rock” while i write this when i should be all Taylor swifty because of last night.
Bahaha life has a funny way of working. It’s like you never know whats going to happen or why things happen until they start making sense.
On the 16th i blogged about this dude who blew our “meeting” off and hurt my feelings doing so (because who the fuck wants to waste a weekend waiting around for someone, only i would actually waste it)
I didn’t mention it was supposed to be him and his friend and me and my bff kinda like a double date thing but it wasn’t a date (not that i know)
On sunday night i went over my bffs and she asked about my profile and why i had disabled it. So i told her because of the last guy and she’s like "lets go on i’m bored" So i enabled it and well i kinda wanted to find the asshole and message him. I was like oh way to blow me off and never text me again, something along those lines; Then his friend who was supposed to go with him that night messaged me saying "oh your the girl he was talking about...” so i figured shit he must have been logged onto the other dudes account and seen my message/ complain about blowing me off. I didn’t say anything though and kept messaging back. My bff asked him to go trick or treating with us and he was like woah moving too fast or something like that, so i asked her to drop it.
We skyped that night and then HE brought meeting up on halloween after previously freaking out about me (my friend texting from my phone) asking; mhmm what magic did my hair in a bun, sweat pant, tired looking face do.
The next day we agreed on taking our friends this time but go out again on saturday by ourselves.
I honestly thought he would flake (ghetto for fall through) but he didn’t and i am oh so glad he didn’t.
So we met at Bestbuy came up to him and said hey! then we left bestbuy and walked FOREVER!
I thought it was pretty funny that i’ve lived in south florida for 7 years and i haven’t been to southbeach. Yet here i was getting a tour from a guy who moved down here months ago...
The streets were crowded and filled with girls dressed ehhh not so lady like. I thought it was sweet of him to say something like whatever they are always dressed with their boobs hanging out so nothing new (as in don’t worry i’m not going to breakneck checking them out, at least not when i’m with you lol)
I wasn’t really sure if he was interested in me, until we talked about clothing and he mentioned he liked polo i said “thats sophisticated looking” and he said oh i didnt wanna go all out on the first day ;) (oh lala so he digs my looks or something, because he wouldn’t mention a first if there wasn’t going to be a second right?) I probably said oh i went all out and then just kidded him.

Our arms kept brushing against each others and i just wanted him to grab my hand already dammit! So i said i’m just gonna hold onto your arm because i don’t wanna get lost (Thank you crowded streets for giving me a valid excuse!) i held his arm for like 2 seconds, then he just grabbed my hand and we held hands the rest of the night.

As we were walking along the beach there was a huge puddle and guess who got a piggy back ride through the puddle? This princess! Can i just say this is the sweetest, most gentlemanish thing a guy has ever done for me. He stopped in front of the puddle and i’m like why did u stop? hop on! what? o_o hop on my back! omg really? thats kinda how it went down.

we got to the Jetties and went out on the rocks away from our friends. The view was beautiful, he had his arm around me, my head on his shoulder and then because its me we are talking about here, we got splashed with water from this one big wave. I wiped the salty water from his face and he wiped it from my arms. Then i don’t know how or when, ahh its like i can never remember. We kissed and his lips tasted salty from the water, i just laughed and kiss, kiss, kiss. It was 1030 and my friend had to be home at 11, so we started walking back and it was all over. I went on my first date off a website :o its funny because when we were kissing i though to myself “omg am i really kissing someone i met online? and most importantly i met someone who’s attractive online and in person?!?”

I texted him when i got home and he didn’t reply....

I though ah shit no i didn’t just get used or something along those lines (not that we did anything except for kissing).. He went to sleep when he got home and replied when he woke up, sigh what a relief.

The guy who took my virginty is back in the US, he’s got an interview at my city’s police department; cool.

The ex boyfriend who dumped me years ago around xmas after 5 days of “relationship” commented my picture and is now trying to play the oh what an idiot i was card, i was immature back then man i messed up... lets hang out for old times sake...Oh sure because it was so easy to forget the nights i spent crying about being dumped!

Listening to the song he dedicated to me and thinking about how stupid i was for believing in him, it took me years to be able to listen to the song and feel nothing. though it will always remind me of him because he introduced me to it.

Whatever i’m still floating on my halloween experience cloud, just thinking of him brings back butterflies in my stomach.

This is me praying that
This was the very first page
Not where the story line ends
My thoughts will echo your name
Until I see you again
These are the words I held back
As I was leaving too soonI was enchanted to meet you ♥

All i know is i was enchanted to meet you.